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Searchingsoul9 Hay baby sister I Reid your post 17 days clean please don’t relapse again like before your chronic fateful is due to the absence of Adderall in your system it’s all part of your recovery plus you probably had a case of the flu on top of it all. Any how I am at day 160 and I haven’t regained my natural energy back yet so jest hang in there recovery takes time don’t give in . I ame proud of you keep up the great efert FALCON

#1 BarbieDahlWOW holy cow you are a walking chemical laboratory you will can soon open up your Owen pharmacy with all the medications your on. My pet turtle has more common sense then your shrink all the drugs contradict each other you need to find a new doctor like ASAP to help you get off of most of the stuff your taking it makes me angry that your doctor has you all doppet up please try to get off of some of the medications you will feel better jest from ulaminating some of your medication. FALCON

[THE Falcon 160 fucken days clean from the evil pill addarall still fell like wet shit it jest runs thru your fingers . I know its gross but it is what it is .Depression is hitting me harder then it ever has energy level 4 out of 10 lonely bored no self worth no motivation no job spending my savings on jest getting buy day by day .So I ask you do you understand the meaning of wet shit depression please go away I will be a good boy I pramiss you I think this is some sort of pay back for all the stooped ass shit I have don in my life well I am paying the piper now so let it be the battle is not over for me . I still have some fight left in me yet. One day at a time my brothers and sisters from another mother live a clean life change your habits when you are still healthy and fairly Yong learn from my mistakes it is probably to late for me to regain my mental and physical health back so don’t fuck up your life like I have . Your friend and comrade The Falcon LOVE PEICE HAPPYNESS IS THE WAY TO LIVE

<a href=" DagnyT Hello sister I will be 56 fucken years old in 2 weeks when you where writing your post it sounded like my life yes I do believe your brain chemistry has changed and it may be permanent but I also know time will hell and you will prabubly never be ho you wher butt you will adapt to the new you .I know I defiantly damaged my brain s chemicals and neuron transmitters I have finally came to this conclusion I have Ben a drug abuser since the age of 13 yeas old inhaling glue out of a bag i started out on street drugs then I graduation into the high society of proscription drugs don’t blame yourself or your husband for the situation you are in you addicts like to hang out with there own kind let me say somting that I have realized some people are genetically programed to abuse or yous drugs butt we do have a choice not to yous life is a fucken bitch most of the time and it certainly is not fair at times we self medicate our self’s to alleviate the pain yes the pain of depression is a real pain both physical and mental I have resonantly tried to explain this to someone whom is not pre programed with a chemical imbalance like you and I ar this person tolled me to jest snap out of it what a ignorance person. I am still walking on this earth because baby I know I have fucked up this body of mine with more shit then I wish to go into wright now. Most of the members on this web site are still young they can change things in there life easier then you and I can they can change there addictive life patterns I try to give them my wisdom and comen scene what I will tell you is you may never be free of your depression and your addictive genetics pre programed . I know people older then you and I and they are functioning addicts and still going strong. Lets have some realization you and I have shortened our life expectancy lets jest call a apple a apple this is the thru facts in hand we are damaged so lets jest try to live the remainder of our life’s in some sort of happiness our clock is ticking down don’t beat up on your self it will jest make you feel like shit be happy every day you are still on this earthly dimension I know I jest gave you a dose off reality sorry about that butt I am getting to old to sugar coat . I hope you will quit using adderall and what ever else your taking this site is so grate I love it and I do want to help these young bloods who still have a chance to live a clean and healthy life still without adderall. I wish you well jest be happy with your relationship with your husband and family it is important to have some one to love. Your new friend falcon give me a private message if you like.

<a href=" Searchingsoul9 I am so happy you found a new therapist your old one did you more harm then good best of luck to you I have a good feeling you will be OK it will jest take time be open and honest with the new therapist don’t hold anything back . Love FALCON

NoOne WE are here for you my brother I will pass some positive energy to you yous it for the will power you will need for the next two weeks please try to make this one count don’t refill your proscription. FALCON

occasional01Hey there if your asking for our permission to go back on addarall I don’t think you will get it from our members. Some people do need to take addarll for legitimate reasons ADD you jest mite be one of thous people you know your self better then we no you so do what you need to do its your health and your in control.I jest want to no what the fuck combination is your morning does.Right now I just want to sleep for 8 hours, wake up, take 15 mg XR and 5-10 IR (my previous AM doesMy opinion is you are giving up you will be wasting away 47 days of being clean maybe you will feel deference after you sleep your 8 hours and chang your mindGood luck FALCON

<a href=" Motivation_Follows_Action Hi sister from another mother I know why you are felling bad today yesterday was a very emotional day for you you have exerted so much mental energy to get thru your interview it was like you ran a Marathon so it is only natural to be exhausted tomorrow is a new day and I am shur you will feel better have a class of red win and go to sleep. Love FALCON

Searchingsoul9 Hang in there girlfriend I am happy to here you made a attempt to find a new therapist keep on looking for one that you are compatible with don’t pick one that you are not comfortable with remember something you need to be 100 comfortable with your therapist you are interviewing them its like going shopping make shur you and the new therapist are a good mach. I so want to see you get away from your current therapist she is not good for you I hope you realize this by now therapist and patient relationship must be compatible for a successful treatment plane. Thank you for trying to find a new therapist Your friend FALCON

Your not a fuck up your a lost sheep trying to find its shepherd . I’m sorry for being so tough on you I am frustrated that you are in so much emotional pain and there is nothing I can do about it. I jest want to see that you get the professional health care you need tomorrow is a another day you can start over don’t put yourself down its not fucking up its jest some bad luck and hard times its a fucken rat race we are living in . I have learns the hard way we need to help our self all the drugs and therapist and shrinks out there are jest a tool for us to use thru help and recovery comes from with in us we have the power to defeat our demands you will find your Shepherd soon . Love THE FALCON

O right you did it without a class of wine congratulations and good luck

<a href=" Searchingsoul9 Hi there baby girlfriend this seems like daysavu we have had this same conversation a few weeks ago what has changed .I was under the assumption that you would find another therapist the one you have is not good for you so why do you keep on going back to her .I am sorry but my intuition is ringing in my head and telling me something is not right here is your therapist a counselor or a shrink .Why am I asking because I never hired of a shrink texting to a patient and vise versa .I believe you where asking for some addarall are you telling me you flushed 3 mounts supply of addarall down the toilet and did not save any for emergency sorry I cant believe that 3 mounts of addarell is a lot of pills sorry for being so sceptical butt you know I have a very strong intuition when it comes to reading Peaple. I think my member friends can contest to that so whats up.1 why is your therapist texting you or are you texting her and she is responding to your request for more addarall. 2 did you really have 3 mounts supply of adderal when you said you flushed them a week ago. 3 why are you still seeing the same therapist we have all come to the conclusion that you need to run away from her and don’t look back. 3 why are you not getting the professional help you need like you said you where going to .4 I believe you are calling out for help by seeking our attention butt we cant help you if you are not willing to make a commitment to stay clean of all subsistence. Baby girl I will plead with you one last time please get the proper professional help you desperately need you are so young and am scared for you. I really do believe with the right therapist and the right shrink you can live a peaceful life of cores you have a lot of recovery time and healing to I know it will not be a walk in the park for you it takes time its not a over night cure its a life long battle butt you need to start somewhere voluntarily because if you don’t make a commitment voluntarily you will be admitted to a hospital not of your on free will so please from all your friends on this web site get the proper help you need and make that commitment to get yourself healthy and clean. Sincerely a friend who cares about you FALCON

ashley6 Hay you did it baby I new you would that’s why I left you alone its like doing a bungee jump you are scared as hell to jump off the bridge butt once you jump and survive your first jump its all fun and you want to jump again and again that’s where your at right now you made the jump now every time you need to address a audience the fear will not return Elvis has left the building congratulations. Your brother FALCON

Welcome my friend you are a true and blue Adderall addict it’s like when you’re broke two days after you just got paid what a fucked up feeling. I feel for you it looks like you need to hit the bottom of the pit at zombie land or end up in the ER of your favorite hospital looking up at the selling and saying to yourself how the fuck did I get here brother you need to make up your mind to quit or not to quit that is the question. Make up your mind do you have what it takes will power it’s all in your hands bro we can’t help you if you do not help yourself first Your friend FALCON

Sky you crack me up bro murder your neighbors and then fallow the shit trail back to your house your great bro and I have seen you grow tremendously in the last 3 mounts you should be a fucken comedian I spit my tea on my computer screen reading your post FALCON

Hay cody I’m not going to beat you up my brother you’re doing a good job beating yourself up and my friends at quitting Adderall gave you a good lasing also .What can I say SKY and QUITONCE said it all except I feel your issue is your weight or jest maybe your you sing it as an excuse to use stimulants my brother alcohol is not a substitute for stimulants is a madder of fact when I use to get drunk it made me hunger as hell it worked the opposite way I would eat like a pig in shit after drinking Go to AA or see a consoler I think there may be some emotional issues you need to deal with. You’re Friend FALCON

Cat hi Ambien is in the benso family do your research never quit a benso drug cold turkey it’s a big no no .What is your rush finish your recovery from Adderall first then when your PAWS go away then go off the Ambien take your time do not rush slow you ass down a little you can’t quit everything at one time your doctor was right by giving you the script jest take the Ambien as prescribed do not abuse it and you will be ok when you’re ready to quit Ambien it will be easy for you to wean yourself off do not go cold turkey you must step down your doctor can help you with the step down dowses when you’re ready for it also welbutran will give you insomnia it is the corrector of the drug it’s a great drug for quitting Adderall and depression associated with quitting addarall good luck Your friend FALCON

Hay baby please don’t freak out go into your interview as yourself please don’t take any Adderall you do not need addearall you have all proven you can do a interviews without a stimulant it will only fuck up your train of thought .Jest be yourself motivation fallows action. I wish I was there for you to kick your butt have confidence and do not be intimidated by the suits they are human jest like you whenever someone try to intimidate me I deflect there attempts I neutralize there effects with positive thoughts do not let your mind drift away you are a very positive person use your positive energy at the interview my gut feeling tells me you will coast right thru it. If you don’t get the job then it was not meant to be you will get a good job when your time comes and you are not expecting it to happen go in with your head held high .If your nerves are getting to you drink a class of win one class not a bottle it will calm you down Your friend FALCON

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Debra I no exactly the way you feel I have Ben down that road jest not to long ago uppers and downers. I know it doesn’t make any common sense you get all hyped up on the stimulants and then you need the xanax to level you back man do I remember that roller coaster ride. You are in no mans land you cant work without the stimulants I know and you most make a income to provide for the two boys. Baby I don’t no what to say to you except I was in the same place as you are now my heart goes out to you. I don’t like when people suffer or are in mental agony and I am UN able to help it hurts me because I know the pain .What I am going to suggest to you is ween of the xanax it is a devil of a drug and in my Apennines it fuckes with you more then the stimulants do it also makes you tiered and jest makes you want to sleep . At my peek of xanax use I was on 8 milligrams a day I was using it in the middle of the night so i could get to sleep and get up to go to work then I would do the addarell during the day so I could be productive at my job everything came to a Holt and I became the waking died a zambee. I say at this point try to get off the xanax first by weening your self off .025 milligrams every two weeks don’t rush when you reduce every two weeks do not up your does no mater how shity you may feel stay at your dayly does and take the xanax the same time every day spread it out don’t take the xanax as needed you will be defeating the purpose of weening off trust me I have had lots of experience with xanax use .you will feel better when you get off the shit and then when your off the xanax you can then work on quitting adderall . I recommend cold turkey there are no bade health effects . You no you have Ben clean off adderall for 30 days or so.It is not a easy jurny it will take you time to get clean in my experience getting off the xanax most be first I have tried many defrent combinations of getting clean of adderall and xanax and I feel this is the easyest way I know learn from my mistakes feel free to contact me any time you need to talk in privet Your caring friend FALCON

Rev&Rush Hay sister teacher you are making the best dissuasion to quit addarell during your brake man I am so happy for you.10 days will feel like forever butt believe me it is worth it your head will clear up like the sun after a rain storm trust this old man you will feel good you will go back to school a new you. FALCON

Sebastian05 Hey my brother get a hold of your self your having anxiety about what drug to take the blue on or the red one what the fuck bro .You have Ben battling this depression for some time now part of your depression comes from you quitting the addarall you where not abusing adderall like most of us on the web site have Ben. 10- 20 milligrams is not a hight does WY did you stop taking adderall in the first place have you considerate that you may actually need a low does for your depression and concentration some people really need to be on adderall there is noting wrong with a low does of adderall if you are using it responsible and not miss using or abusing the drug you seem like you are a very responsible guy and you have good correcter and you are a smart man your not a kid anymore you are a grown man. As far as depression goes there is noting wrong with taking a antidepressant you may really need it if your mood is down all the time for no reason at all you may need to take somting every one gets depression once in a wile but it only last temporary in most cases and there depression lifts away naturally but if you cant seem to shake of depression you may need to be on something it does not make you a faller brother jest try it out if it works well on you heera for you. I have Ben on some sort of antidepressants all my adult life and probably tried 20 different brands if you do not have any side affects and the drug is making your depression easier to cope with stay on it. I think you may need it and dam it brother I don’t ever want to heir you put your self down again it pisses me off bro you are not a looser stop beating your self up you have a great life and a good career look at all the positive things you have going for your self . Your friend and supporter FALCON

Hey welcome to the forum may I put my two cents in it sounds like you want to quit using addarall butt the question is how and when you work all day and grade papers at night if you go cold turkey you will not function at all and your co workers will see you are not well considering your long therm use of adderall you will not be Abel to function for for at least 7 to 10 days this is called your crash landing when your body no longer has that constant flow of addarall flowing crash landing it will be your most uncomfortable time there is no health risks you will jest feel like hell came knocking on your door you will sleep sleep and sleep you will be hungry moody have anxiety your mussels will hurt like you have the flu you will have depression . Butt all these symptoms are worth the week in hell you will then feel most of your discomfort lift the fog will clear away now you are in recovery and you will need to deal with the PAWS butt it is not as bad it sounds PAWS is at least something that you can control with supplements good food exercise man I hat that word it makes me tired to say exercise and good old fashion coffee red bull or any number of natural stimulants and suplaments .You have read our success stores on the quit addarall web site many of us went thru the discomforts of cold turkey we made it and we wear it like a bag of honer recovery can take up to 1 year our more but I promise you every day your clean it will get more easier you at least you will be abal to function without the adderall .So her is my two cents old school wisdom wait Intel you go on your spring brake this is when you will have the time to take care of you you and only you this is when the teacher has her time to crash land off the fucken addarall . If you have a trip planed out cancel it your well being and health is more important then a vocation at this time of your life yes you are right time is running out do you want to make a family and have a baby well you cant if you have a addictions go for it teacher make it your plan your goal to go off addeearll cold turkey on your spring brake and finally say good by to your long time friend adderall. Your new friend FALCON

Hey sister Ben reading your post about getting out and finding a job . I think its a great idea you probably have cabin fever by now getting out will help your mental health substantially its all good Every one falls on hard times in there life noting to be embarrassed about your husbands history has nothing to do with your working skills the subject of your husband should not even come out in your interview jest say you are separated that’s it. Don’t be discouraged if you don’t find a job right away you will get a lot of no before you get a yes. Its a numbers game the more applications you have calculating out there your odes ore more in your favor in finding that job be persistent and not discouraged . Your friend FALCON

Hay baby girl day 7 without adderall is good but its jest the binging of your recovery .Your anxiety is probably caused by the absents of adderall in you system it is a common side effect for withdrawal .Next you have anxiety because you don’t know if you can continue your education with out adderall . Please don’t relapse you will be wasting 7 days of recovery time .Don’t blame your probables on weed yes maybe you are smoking to much weed and you probably need to cut down on the weed it is a good drug to control anxiety at night so you can sleep well use it like a municipal drug to calm your ass down don’t yous the weed to get high with . I all so think you still need some professional help with your ED issues and your soulsal issues . This web site is a great place for support and for self help we can only confert you in your pain Baby like I said to you before please try to find the right kind of therapist for your condition I am very concerned about your physical health your body will start to deteriorate from the ED you must get it under control. You where all gun ho a few weeks ago and I was happy for you it seems like your crashing now mentally and physically please seek out some professional doctors and a therapist you so desperately need you are a young girl and with the right kind of help you will get a handle on your problem I want to give you a big hug and tell you you will be OK . FALCON