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ashley6 Hay baby jest be your self on the date no bullshit no lies be honest about your feelings. .Please do not be intimidated by his education be free if the chemistry is not there for you and him move on and don’t look at it as a failure its not you. You have a beautiful soul it is one of your strong character. Good luck on the date Your friend FALCON

Thank you for all the worm responses concerning my depression I love you all jest reading all your post makes me feel better like hay someone cares about me you guys are like family to me. I feel like I can be open and honest with you all .I am not in the boat house right now lake Michigan is getting ready to freeze the harbor has ice in it. I will be back on bored in April it is fucken cold her right now and no sun . Thank you all for your remades you have suggested for the cure of my depression .Like they say the storm will blow over I will be OK I am so use to the ups and downs its jest part of my life and I know how to deal with it the best way I can. THE FALCON

Kyle_Chaos Hey brother sounds like your feeling better don’t get off the wellbuterin wright now it is typical for people on antidepressants to want to get off because the drug is doing its job and you feel good wright now you say to your self I don’t need this drug any more I feel fine this is what you are experiencing now its typical stay on it for a little longer if you ween off now your depression will return trust me bro I have bin there many times listen to my experience learn from my mistakes .The drug is jest now starting to do its job give it a little more time so you can recover properly then when you feel like weening off in about 3 to 6 mounts do it. I tolled you you will not need to be on welbutrin long term. Your friend FALCON

Hey my brothers and sisters sorry I haven’t Ben posting in a couple of days I am not doing well at all my friend depression is back to pay me a visit its like she does not want me to forget that shes still with me and she is the only one to put me in my place shes kicking me in the ass big time. I am not working right now so I sleep tell 11 am and then try to wake my ass up with coffee that takes about 1 and a half hours to do motivation is at -0 000. I don’t think my antidepressants are working well for me they are starting to loos there affect on my serotonin leaves. I know this feeling vary well the meds jest stop working its probably time to change medication I know this ruteen by now I have Ben thru it many of times I hat trying new medication because of the fucken side affects I have tried every fucken antidepressant there is .I am sorry I have not Ben contributing to the forum lately I am so fucked up big time I hop I will pull out of this latest bout of depression jest feel so hopeless I hate this feeling jest feel so lonely and hopeless and fatigue haven’t Ben on the trail lately its to cold out or may be its an excuse I don’t know my depression is almost to the point of a disability. I don’t need a pat on the back or pity party from my friends at quitting addarell I jest feel you guys are the only ones whom understand me .Jest put out some good energy out there and think about me in a positive way I will feel your thoughts come to me it will help. Thank you my good friends love you all FALCON

<a href=" Searchingsoul9 Hey baby girl your doing OK talk to your mom sit down at the kitchen table and give her the heads up let her no how your feeling and that you will be a bitch for about 2 weeks let her know how much you love her and appreciate her support during your withdrawal you will be surprised how much compassion and understanding you will receive from her jest by having a normal conversation with out any hostility or sarcasm involved. Your head is finally in the right place all your quit adderall friends are proud of you you are showing a great deal of matcherity .Please jest hang in there 10 days two weeks you will look back and be proud of what you have accompliced. FALCON

Hey baby girl I Reid your post so senser and so honest I think your head is in the right place you are a good person you are way to young to have all this shit hanging over your head you will be OK someday soon you know it takes time and effort to get to the place you want to be my hunch tells me you will make it jest keep that great will power going I jest Reid about. Talk to you in tomorrow. Your friend FALCON

My quitting adderall friends WORRNING stay away from XANAX it will fuck you up in no time at all it is the mother of all bensos as you all know I have come off a 20 year habit of XANAX it all started out with a low does for anxiety and escalated in to a 24 hour addiction xanax is a good medication for panic attack it is best used for a temporary time only not long therm please my friends save your soul xanax will steel it from you before you even new what hit you its harder to get off then harawin or nicotine the withdraws will curial you up in a ball every day for mounts and you can not go cold turkey because it can kill you if for some reason you need to detox from xanax you will need hospitalization they will put you to sleep for two weeks so you don’t have a seizure then when the seizure comes they will control it with a antisiezer medication thru your IV. Please my friends I don’t want you guys to suffer like I did I don’t wish the hell from the withdrawal on my worst enemy I am not that evil. Motivation try some natural shit theirs a lot out there my preference is kava kava it don’t taste good nether you need to put honey in it and jest jug it down 3 times a day it will help your anxiety do not use long term it can be toxic to the liver . Passion flower is good also . FALCON

Mikey D Welcome to the forum 10 days that’s cool bro. I hope you got rid of your stash its really the best way not to be tempted to use adderall Reid all the shit you can on the web site lots of good information and some really good people that will support you in your recovery. Your new friend FALCON

Cry all you want crying is actually therapeutic it brings out a lot of chemicals to make you feel better you are having a hard day cry your eyes out and get a good night sleep tomorrow will be a another challenging day for you A BIG HUG FOR YOU it will be OK time will heal. Your friend FALCON

Motivation_Follows_ActionHey stop beating your self up I want to slap you girl but I never hit a girlfriend the vote is in the stress of that fucken interview got the best out of you the important thing here is your back on the right track for your recovery as long as your stash is cone you will not have the temptation you have beaten yourself up enough jest move on we forgive you for taking a fucken pill so forgive yourself now.

Searchingsoul9 Hay sister baby girlfriend you have surprised this old dud congratulations on the flush. I hope it was your hole stash . You thru me for a loop I really didn’t think you had it in you. I am very proud of you you have jest errand my respect girlfriend. I hope you are feeling better with the depression and I hope you are eating food you still need to get a handle on that ED issue your dealing with butt hay one step at a time jest keep clean from the adderall it was a big step in your recovery .As fair as your doctor is concerned you do not need to be intimidated by her she is like you and I no different she jest got some fancy ass M.D in back of her name and it sounds to me she has a big ego also .I am thinking about something is your Doctor the right person for you and your recovery because you seem like you cant be open with her and you are uncomfortable with her you jest may not be a good match please reconsider finding some doctor you will feel comfortable with . Never be intimidated by anyone you are to street wise for that don’t be scared of change sometimes change is a good and necessary thing to do. Your friend FALCON

Motivation_Follows_Action Hay baby my good friend try to calm your self down I know its easier said then done mony mony mony that’s the number one thing cupales argue about . OK you are having a bad day we all go thru them you are jest frustrated right now you feel hopeless I do understand you are very emotional today maybe your housebound had a bad day also so your both feeling shity and you where on each others nerves. Tomorrow is a another day whit new challenges a fresh new day and I hope with a good night sleep you will be OK. I can feel you you are a very loving person big heart and compassionate please try to get out of this temporary slump your in it hearts me to see you in pain I wish I can be there for you and give you a huge and tell you everything will be OK and you will get your financial maters under control it will take time and jest a little more patients on your part you need to keep something in your mind things may never be the same again everything changes nothing stays the same so for your sanity please try to except what I am trying to express to you may never be at the same place you where once in your life theirs nothing we can do its OK things change people change life is always changing so adapt and do not consider your self a looser your jest having a little bad luck right now it will get better it will pass trust this old man. Love you FALCON

Hello all my beautiful brothers and sisters I think this is a great trend I love it . Its day 120 for the falcon I cant fucken believe it the worst part of my day is getting up in the morning I don’t even have the energy to make the coffee and then I shit at the kitchen table like a zambee my head is slumps over like I belong in a nursing home or something like that then I am in this state of fatigue lintel my 3 cups of coffee kick in this takes about 1 and a half hours then my motivation starts up butt it is not a natural motivation I need to push it to happen. Then I try to go out for a hike in the woods to get this old blood flowing and it also clears my mind the peacefulness of being on the trail clears my mind after my hike I fell like doing some work so fair half a day has gone by that’s my daily rutteen. My good friend depression is still with me it will never leave me alone as my friends on the forum know its a fuced up life for moust of us but its my life and I need to make the best with what I have Ben given ben given. The way I need to look at it is this way there are people on this earth whom are in worst shape then myself so I have learned not to feel sorry for my self jest take every day i have good or bad and make the best out of it . We all need to be thankful that we the adderal addicts have a choice and we will recover as my good friend quitonce said we need to putt our time in being clean from the drugs we have abused time will heal there is no fast way to recover only the slow way so lets keep counting our days clean its a great idea Your thru friend and supporter THE FALCON 120 days and counting

The Legatus Congratulations welcome to our dysfunctional little family I love them all if it wasn’t for this great web site I would still be a adderall addict we are her for you thank you for quitting addarell and keep on posting it helps knowing your not alone. Your friend FALCON

What can I say all my friends said it all jest fine make up your mind set a time flush the shit and quit. We will support you in your crash landing and in your recovery you can do it we all did and we are still alive. Your friend FALCON

Choase Chill out my brother it is a normal side effect and it will pass give the new does about 1 week and you will Laval off you will not be tiered trust me have I ever given you bad advice. Depending on how your depression is the doctor may increase your does once again the max for wellbutran is 300 ml so your right in the middle be patient this is a drug you can stop when ever you like and it is not addicting but you will feel like you don’t have energy if and when you want to stop using this medication . FALCON

occasional01 Don’t be intimidated by the big smock he is jest like you and I the only deference is he has some crazy ass title and a bigger salary then you and has that power trip on top of it all you are setting your self up to be intimidated you need to go into the meeting without fear. I am sour you have given your work 100% and that’s all that is expected of you your not supper man we can only do our best that’s all that is excepted . When your in that meeting tomorrow concentrate on your breath be aware of breathing into your abdomen and not your lunges this will calm you down breath control the us army snipers use this tactic when they are concentrating on a shot it works practice it when you get up in the morning and continue it thru out your day it does control anxiety which you seem like you have never let anyone intimidate you have control to over ride intimidation he is trained to intimidate that is his job so jest go in and be calm. FALCON

Opal Hey I am clad we can help so you have felt zombie addearll land at least you know how fucked up it can get .I would like to say when you are feeling that way you are on your way there on a day to day basses and there is no stopping the snow ball it will jest get bigger and stronger so my friend read all the shit on the web site get it planted into your memory and make a dissuasion to stop if you are ready. Make your goal and make your mind up make a time line when to stop maybe you want to finish your stash I don’t know its not a good idea flush my friend jest flush them down the toilet when your ready to and let use know when you do so we can support you with your crash landing we are her for you jest say when. Your Friend FALCON

lea OK I am understanding you a little better now it makes sense now baby girl jest stay clean its the best way I fucked up my mind and physical health with all my drug use in my time I am 55 and I have beaten my self up don’t make my mistakes learn from me stay clean it really is the best way to live a long life Your Friend FALCON

ashley6 Hey baby hii yoo dooing its good to see your smiling face it always lefts me up you look so happy on your profile photo pass some of that haplessness this way I can use some today it was a shity day see I new my brief encounter with a little happiness would not last I will jest need to wait for the next wave to come calling on to me and say snap the fuck out of it you dummy .Any how I think the TV shows are jest an excuse for use not to do what we need to do its called procrastinating with a excuse. Love you your friend FALCON

<a href=" Opal Hey friend we can not convince you how bad the adderall is on your mental and your physical health you are a newbie when it comes to the length of time you have bin useing adderall this forum is full of veteran adderall users no mater what we tell you you will not quit using the shit Intel your ready and you start to fuck up your life and you will its jest a mater of time before you are in the zambee land of adderall .Your tolerance will get higher your doses will increase you will be hunting down the pill like a hungry dog looking for new resources and suppliers to feed your addiction yes jest a mater of time so go on use the shit and come back to the forum when you need our support we will still be her to help you You will learn the hard way. THE FALCON

Hey brother I hope things are going good for you at school How about this do your fuckin homework first tape the show . When your don with your homework then watch the show after your homework is don this will be your reword hang in there bro we are in your corner and watching your back. FALCON

LEA Hi I am clad you got the doctors visit out of the way and you came to the conclusion to come foreword and be truthful with your Ritalin abuse I hope your mind is clear now and you have some piece .One thing is buttering me I have never hurried of a shrink doing random drug test on a patient for proscription medication with no history of drug abuse there has to be more to this story. I don’t think you where a heavy abuser maybe jest a irresponsible missuses sounds like a power trip on the shrinks behalf .The only time I have hurried of random drug testing is with illegal substances and usually by a rehab center or a court order tell me more about this shrink something is not right about this request from the shrink sorry you know how much I love shrinks FALCON

Sky hi my brother the walks are great its is very peaceful out on the trail no traffic piece and quiet one with nature if you no what I mean and the whether is the only thing keeping me from walking as long as its 20 degrees or above with the sun shining I am OK with hiking I usually pack 20 pounds of bricks in my bag pack to build my endurance and strength up it feels good when I am finished natural high. Today was not a good day for me felt like shit if you no what I mean . Thank you for your friendship FALCON

InRecovery Hi brother you know I was also a xanax addict for 20 years there is nothing wrong with thanking a xanax if you yous them responsibly on occasions when you do have a panic attack it is a good medication for calming you down you have a new career now and it will be stressful in tell you get accustomed to your new job .Butt brother please do not get addicted to that shit its very easy to become addicted to xaanax if you need to calm down naturally breathing techniques they do work if don correctly. Your Friend FALCON