Greg

That sounds like a crazy situation! ...but to answer your question I was extreeeeeeemly impulsive. I just did things without thinking about it. If i popped a pill I would get a burst enthusiasm for something, and just pursue it full on without thinking. If I was paranoid, I'd act on it. I think a drug addict has problems thinking out the consequences of actions because an addict - if you look at the traditional form of "insanity" of addiction - An addict does the same thing over and over again expecting a different outcome each time. As soon as I quit, I began regaining confidence in my decision making and judgement.

I'm sorry you are going through this. Knowing that 90% of these are not cancerous should hopefully be of some comfort to you. I'm sending you my prayers for the surgery to go well.

Occasional, where r u?

AlwaysAwesome?

Ashley!!! :-( U still have all day Sunday to cram in some miles. That's what I did last week. I got to 12 by 10pm on Sun night. I am at 19 for the week. I might do some extra miles tomorrow.

no you don't think you have narcolopsy!! Because if you do then a lot of people have it. I think its normal, when you are putting so much time into work to just be exhausted. During my 10 week summer job, I looked forward to getting to sleep on the weekends. And I definitely needed to sleep 14-16 hours and nap too over the weekends. Work is exhausting. There are all these tech things that are getting popular with tracking sleep like fitbits and I even talked to someone who uses this website http://www.sleepcycle.com/ Here is another link http://lifehacker.com/5993005/five-best-sleep-tracking-gadgets-or-apps I DO believe that some people are blessed and just dont need much sleep. Unfortunately I need a lot of sleep...I dont think there is an issue with you, just that you are exhausted and you need to recover. But others weigh in... It could be worse, I have a friend who had to work 22 hours one day last week, 21 hours the next day, for an average of about 17 hours per day at the office. He's pretty miserable. Also imagine doctors, I dont think they even get to leave the hospital!

I remember feeling like I was getting a lot of things done, but I was only completing bits and parts of things. And I was missing a lot of information and thinking I had retained it all and just in general I was careless and all over the place. I might read a book quick but I didn't read carefully or anything...I was just speedy.

I actually never took it do laundry but I bet a lot of people did.

For me browsing the internet was like "an adventure through time and space" lol

12 miles today! I liked this post. Im trying to just stick to salads.. but portion control is the hardest for me with all the running. But I know running + portion control works well for me. keeping a food journal to stay within 1500 calories a day works REALLY REALLY well for me, but I dont know if I can do it. It's so hard. i gained 20 lbs this summer from stress. ill be Hitting the treadmill hard and the salad bar too.

Hahah that is disgusting but yeah I certainly "get" it.

CONGRATZ!!!!!!

Hmm....well next week try again.

Check in Sunday- It's 10:25pm on Sunday and made it to 12! Walking was def required at times to get to the magic 12 number.

and...?

I cant believe it, but im not sore...i was expecting to be so sore. Ashley - you still got time...there are six hours left today. We have to learn how to work at our job while still keeping in shape at the same time. I know that's easy for me to say now, but when I start working I will begin forcing myself to run too. Im headed to the gym to try to make it to 6.

I got 6 miles today but it was so tough. I walked for 3/4 of one of the miles. I used the Nike + app which is waaaay better - precise- now, so that's why i know i walked .75 of a mile. It was funny because a couple people saw me looking so tired they were concerned and asked me if I was okay hahaha.

Alright its 8pm, 80 degrees out now. Im headed out for a run!!!

There is a recurring theme here that adderall changed peoples lives once they discovered. They were on top of the world, more social etc etc...I remember my 'honeymoon' with adderall as this amazing transformation in my life. I was elected to student council executive vice president(lol), I got an internship, I paid extreme attention in class and got a high GPA...I was extremely involved in my extracurricular activities and did a great job (lol) .... But looking back, much older now- were these 'life changing' things even such a big deal? Who cares? So what maybe you became more talkative? So what you are a supermom or parent? So what you can stay on top of the laundry better than anyone else? But these are not such a big deal if you really think about it. Agreed? Disagreed?

I thought it might be interesting to pose some questions about adderall, topics similar to what Mike was posting on, and people can gradually share their experiences... I was never able to turn myself off on adderall. When I was revved up on it, I couldn't just do yoga or meditate or something like deep breathing. There were countless days where I had to wake up early, and so I just didn't even try to go to sleep the night before because I was so revved up. Were any of you actually able to "turn off" when you "revved up" on speed? Were there times where you really needed to turn off but you couldnt?

That's interesting. I remember in the book "On Speed" they talked about how military were given prescription amphetamines...but it seems its getting less and less acceptable in organizations, like in MLB.

how is the quit going? Have you talked to him about it yet to keep it away from you?

in my job, and in my life in general I totally rely on vitalist.com to get my stuff done. If that site disappeared i would be a mess. At work, I saw people who have color coded lists highlighted in different colors - each color representing a different priority level. Everyone has to have a system that works, but finding the system that works for you is the trick -- for me its vitalist.com But also dont overwhelm yourself - i dont know how your company operates but remember, you are building a mental addiction free foundation right now for yourself and your future, so if there are projects you can get off of or avoid - go that route and take it as easy as possible as you can. Can you take some personal days? or vacation? This is critical, because if you don't lose your adderall dependency things will escalate badly for you. You can do this!!

I live next to a bar where my friends frequent and I'm good friends with owner and bartenders and had way too much fun last night. I've decided I will force myself to only drink ONCE a week, cut down drastically xanax - bc they are an EVIL dangerous combo. And no smoking (the relaxing kind of smoking)

It's 95 degrees outside. Gym hasn't opened yet I'm going to try running tonight when it drops down 80ish.