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Thanks, you guys! I guess you're right, but I still haven't kicked my smoking habit, and I'm so not proud of that because it makes it feel worthless to even try to get "healthy," but until I do the mental benefits of running have paid off for me. Ugh, it's hard to talk about smoking and running in the same post. I think it's time for new shoes ASAP. And maybe my mentality is I'm out of shape. Running is SO mental....good points. I reallllly hope I can make it to the gym after work tonight to get in more miles. 7 is more than I've done in awhile, and I'd like to keep it up! Thanks for the input, you two!

Thanks for your kind words, occasional! Lots of good stuff on this thread since I checked last! InRecovery, your list of foods you've eaten kind of made me hungry...ha. Occasional, that's pretty impressive. I'm confident you'll get the sit-ups part...I'm guessing in like a week, because that's how you roll! I'm at 7 miles for the week. I've noticed since I slacked for awhile, it's definitely made a difference in my stamina. It feels so good to run, but my brain wants it more than my body....ha. I've been sore the last two times I ran for the first time in so long....obviously got out of shape!

Oh my gosh, InRecovery! That is ridiculously great news. You continue to be a success story on this site....so proud, and it gives me lots of hope! Congratulations!

Happy happy happy 100 days, Lunax!

Thank you so much, InRecovery and quit-once. I'm so grateful for the guidance and direction you two have given and continue to give me!

Llwilson, Proud moment! That post is so significant because it shows your dedication to your recovery! That is a tough situation to deal with, and you conquered it! Bravo!

Kori, I'm sorry you have so much on your plate right now. Congratulations on your decision to quit. As awful and dismal as it may seem right now, it gets better. While I don't know your relationship, I do know what I went through after quitting. I was settling for a dysfunctional relationship with a man that did not want a future with me. I spent three years with him, and while we did have good times and I will always care about him, I would NOT choose a partner like him off of adderall with a clear head. I shifted from thinking I couldn't live without him to "what the hell am I doing in this relationship?!" We did go through some of my recovery together, then eventually ended it, and I KNOW that was for the best. My point being: adderall can really mess with all aspects of your life, especially relationships. Maybe you should focus on getting through early recovery without adding any additional stressors (a break up)and reevaluate the relationship when withdrawal has eased up on you a bit. I think you might be surprised by your shift in perspective on the whole relationship. Hang in there. You can do this!

InRecovery, Yes!!!! I'm D-O-N-E!!!! It doesn't even seem real that I have my undergraduate degree that I had put off for so many years! While it might not be considered a big accomplishment to some, this degree something much bigger to me. I'm finally moving forward with my life post-adderall. I know in my heart that I wouldn't have gotten back on track had it not been for my quit. While more challenges lie ahead of me (job searching, working a 9-5, etc.), I thank God to be here! How did your finals go?!

Cassie, Congratulations on two years! I don't know what we'd do around here without your knowledgeable self....seriously. Very proud of you. Treat yourself today

Good job, Cat! And you're right. We've got this. This week I'm making it a priority without excuses!

0 miles this week, folks! I'm finally done with commuting back and forth for school each week, and I hope this will become a time I make running important like it used to be in my life!

Amy, Glad to hear the good news. We're rooting for you! And cigarettes? Wow, that's something I haven't done myself. You're on a great path.

Cardinals5155, Excellent news and welcome! When you feel comfortable, I'd like to hear more about your story. Use this site at your lifeline. It's a blessing! Be easy on yourself and take it a day at a time!

Cat and Occasional, Sorry to hear about your falls. Yikes! I hope you are both feeling better!

Cat, I had pretty significant depression even at the year mark. I had tried Wellbutrin previously and didn't like it that much but after realizing Lexapro wasn't enough I gave Wellbutrin another shot. I'm glad I did. It works much differently than any other antidepressant I've tried. I finally felt happiness again that I don't remember feeling at all after post-quit. It does help with energy levels and focus for me (but it's nothing like adderall....thank goodness!) I struggled with just trying to overcome the inevitable depression that happens after quitting stimulants, but I have a long history of depression, and I felt like a year was a time I should feel at least glimpses of happiness. It's hard to remember, but this is the best I can remember how Wellbutrin helped me (and continues) to work for me. I hope I don't sound like a Wellbutrin drug rep...ha. A lot of people's depression lifts on it's own, and everyone's different, so it's a personal choice. Just my two cents.

The snow and ice has been crazy here! At least you got 4, and I totally agree that even if we don't make it, at least it's a priority to come here to admit it. You should get rollover miles after all that running you have done anyway

Good job, Cat! I'm ONLY at 2.5 miles, and I just walked out of work, and I have nooo motivation to go to the gym, BUT I'm going, even though it's got to be a quick run. Your post motivated me.....thanks I've been a huge slacker. Ahhh....nevermind. I just realized I don't have my gym shoes with me 2.5 miles it is.

I think the consensus is changing doctors could be for the best. In recovery, it's crazy some of the things that can remind you or trigger adderall thoughts. So if we can eliminate the potential triggers that we actually have control over (prescribing doctors), why not change? It's a personal decision, though.

Amy, Congratulations on day 12. I really think you're setting yourself up for success by posting and sharing and asking questions. I posted like crazy for a long time about almost anything and continued to receive helpful feedback from the members on this site that I could never repay them for and knowing you're not alone is a big part of it too. You're doing great, woman!

Lunax, May I ask why you got off of Wellbutrin? I'm currently on it, so I'm just curious.

Congratulations on a year! Quite an accomplishment! I started noticing positive changes about a year into my recovery as well.

Amy, I did break ties with my doctor. I think there are a couple reasons it might be important for you to do so. Only you can evaluate this, but for me, I only went to this doctor to get prescribed adderall. It wasn't like I had a relationship with him, and he wasn't a bad doctor, I just had heard he'd prescribe me. Anyway, there were too many memories of adderall that would probably be triggers of using. Secondly, what kind of doctor do you have? If you are honest with him or her and tell them you are addicted and to cut you off, will they absolutely stop prescribing you? I'm amazed at how many doctors of members on this site didn't take them seriously when they said they were addicted. I just think closing doors where possible when adderall would be easily accessible is only going to be an asset in your decision to quit! Find that strength to call your doctor! It's worth it.

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ldmcdaniel, I'm sorry to hear that you're going through such a difficult time. I could've faced a lot of legal trouble myself time and time again if I would've gotten caught chasing my addiction and buying illegally. My heart goes out to you. This is not only a warning to those who haven't quit, but even us who have, to remember the lifestyle of addiction is what we'd have if we ever went back. Thank you for sharing. I'll be praying for you.

A little crazy is waaaay better than boring. You had me thinking you were going to fill your prescription too. This is a big step that might not feel good right away, but you made a great choice by doing so! I hope you get to feeling better! Very proud of you!