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Good luck on your finals, InRecovery!

At 6 months I didn't notice much change either. It's still a milestone, in that, it's a half of a year you've worked towards a happier life. Things will get better in time. You seem to have the patience that's so important in recovery! Keep on keepin' on...

I just wanted to point out how big of a step it was that you considered quitting your job (is what I assume you meant) as a response to the anxiety. That is major because it shows how important your quit is to you. It's natural to think of adderall in those situations....it's just what you do with those thoughts, and you fought through them.....yesssss!

Good job, occasional! I got 4. I must make running a priority, I must!

Llwilson, Congratulations on 60 days, woman!

Congratulations on 6 months, zerokewl!

Cat, Awesome! Great job! InRecovery, Whaaaat?! 40 miles in 2 days?! That's unreal...so impressed. I will embarrassingly check in with 3 miles. Ughhhh. I'm going to gym TOMORROW to get started early this week! Nice work, you two!

Quit-once, Now I'm wondering if I even capitalize adderall? I'll have to check, but I so get it! I hate the word addy for adderall now (no offense to anyone who says that, just a personal thing). It sounds like an endearing nickname, and it deserves nothing of the sort.

After 12 years of use, and you're 5 months clean! I'm so proud! I know it's not easy, but you can do this!!! I like having you around here, so stick with us! Congratulations!

I finished my paper, ya'll. I haven't sat down for 6 hours straight in a loooong time. My paper is turned in, and it feels fabulous to know I did it on my own. Yeah, I procrastinated big time! My birthday is tomorrow. I hated my birthdays on adderall, because I knew life was passing me by, and I was doing nothing to get ahead, just falling behind. This birthday is going to feel good, even if I don't have much planned. Sorry for hijacking this thread

Occasional, So glad to hear from you! Sorry about your cat Is he/she okay? What kind of shoes did you get? It's time to invest in some new ones for me!

Blesbro, That list was fantastic. Thanks for sharing. I never did do one of those lists, that I can think of, but mine would've had a lot of similarities to yours. It felt good to read those, and think in my head, check! Adderall was getting me nowhere. I absolutely couldn't have lived a life moving forward with it. I was stuck in neutral and going in reverse quickly!

This is what I feel like right now trying to finish my last paper of college. This is 25% of my grade, so if I don't do well, I could potentially not get a C in the class, even though I've gotten an A-, A-, and B on my tests....ahhhh. Stress!!!

Great news! Congratulations!

Oyvey, The fact that you got rid of your stash AND called your psychiatrist shows amazing strength. I'm super impressed. Be prepared for a crash period. It varies for everyone, but it happens in one way or another. Going to the gym is a great idea. When you said "man, this is a weird drug," you are so right. It's really strange the odd things it makes you want to focus on. But like Justin said, the general consensus is that it's a lie (that we become smarter). We don't. It's a false sense of confidence that makes you FEEL smarter. You've got this!!! Post as often as you need!

I was on adderall 7 years or so, peak dosages around 120 mgs, but I bet there were times it was more than that. I was in such a fog, so who knows how much I was actually taking. Cold turkey was the only way for me to go, because I'm an adderall addict, recovering, but I know I'd never be able to control it. My question to you is, do you feel like your addicted? Your body will go through withdrawals regardless, but if you have the control to taper, I would think that would be okay. Your doctor is prescribing you 180 mgs? I didn't know that was even legal. Adderall withdrawal doesn't kill you, and it will be rough, but you can do it. As blesbro said, it works in your favor that you've been on it only a year. Stop while you're ahead! You have our support!

InRecovery, A huge congratulations on 3 years! Treat yourself! You've done some amazing things during this time to show us we too can succeed post-adderall. I've considered you a part of my support system since I quit so know that you are making a difference for others, especially me! I'm very proud of you, sir!!

Occasional, we miss you!!!

Good job, Cat!!!

Well, I just got home from the gym. I got 7.5 in this week....meh. Good job, InRecovery! I'm so impressed with you every week. Maybe I should give long runs a shot because obviously I've not been making my goal. It seems like so much! Do you do these long runs outside or on the treadmill?

Zhenka, Congratulations on 6 months!!! I think that's great advice even way past the 6 month period. Cognitive Behavioral Therapy isn't for everyone, but it has helped me immensely. My counselor is an addiction specialist, in recovery herself, so it is so nice that I can talk to her like you all, and she truly GETS it. I went every week or 2 for my first year. I still go, just not as much. Any advice on meditation? I think it would be useful for me!

Tessa, It's not an easy process, but you've begun a journey towards freedom and that's exciting. One of the first things I did when I quit was delete my dealer's numbers and for those I couldn't, I let them know that, although it was MY responsibility to not ask for adderall, please keep in mind I'm starting a difficult process and don't sell me anything. While many dealers aren't going to look out for your well-being, I highly suggest cutting ties, deleting numbers, whatever it takes. Do you feel comfortable taking those steps? I want to congratulate you on your decision!! You can do this!!! Sleep, Netflix, quittingadderall.com will be your best friends. One day, one hour, one minute at a time!

Jon, Thank you so much. You're doing great, and I really enjoy having you around! Quit-once, Hearing you say you'd give me a hug made me happy! You've heard about most of my struggles and have often been a voice of reason for me, when I couldn't be for myself. The funny thing about public speaking was that I ended up enjoying that class a lot. It was 90% the anticipatory anxiety. I might post my diploma on here when I get it....ha. It's been 10 years coming! I'm so grateful to be off of that crazy roller coaster ride I call adderall!

Good job, Cat! I know....Occasional, check in with us, pleasseeee!

I do NOT have a natural love for being productive (wish I did) , so maybe I'd fit in better with other cultures In all seriousness, that's a good point, Jon.