JustinW

I think my allergies have gotten worse since quitting. It wouldn't surprise me if our bodies are in a weakened state during withrdawl.

Congratulations on 5 months! You were the reason that I joined the site and your open, honest, and genuine communication continues to by an inspiration to us all.

You should be coming through the lowest part of the crash any day now. Keep your head up, it sounds like you are pushing through it.

Glad to see that you are still hanging in there!

skittish

Welcome aboard Kevinsevin, Phil 4:13 buddy

pumped!!!

I remember my first week on Adderall, I read through "Firewall Policies & VPN Configurations" and "Configuring Sonciwall Firewalls" in about 2 days. Now I am struggling to get through a 100 page book on the life of Bernard Pietenpol; I'm in chapter 2 after 2 weeks. @zhenka - I actually started to think you were 100% right when I read your post but I went deeper into my thoughts and past. I found out that I was unhappy about the same things in life pre-adderall that make me unhappy today, but I wouldn't charactarize myself as an unhappy person. The things that make me miserable are inconsequential and quitting adderall has given me the gift of the realization of what is truly important and what I make falsely important.

I still need to catch that flick

I had to skip a single day conference last month because I couldn't handle it; good on you for making it through a 5 day! @FW - eating quality over quantity is tough for me too, I've gained 20# since quitting and it's all out front. Have a blessed day!

Congratulations on the new job!

So, I have been doing some introspection lately and analyzing my behaviour post adderall. I notice that I hit a wall when I am trying to read long portions of text and no matter what I do my mind just goes white and I can't read any further. If I try to push it, I end up reading word by word with little to no comprehension. Does anyone else experience this? I think reading some of the longer posts on this site has helped me push the envelope a little bigger but it's quite a large frustration for me. My vocabulary skills have degraded too.

Day 37 and internet, two things that go great together! I missed soooo much not having web access for a week so I can empathize with that pain. You folks are turning and burning all the way to 60!

Who is John Galt?

Busted knuckles

@ZK - Congratulations!

Sorry, but in the words of Archer "Phrasing!" LOL The sleep is great though. I can't sleep in but the quality is awesome unless someone in the family is creating disturbances.

I am a couple of days short of 9 mos. and I would say that there is definitely an ebb and flow to PAWS but it seems like the down times are getting shorter and further between. @Seb - you don't need to offer the world. I feel the same way most days but I hang around just to encourage others even though I generally have nothing all that insightful to say. Things will get better, you are just relearning how to walk without a crutch. Rehabilitation is a very personal thing and you will progress at your own pace. Try to focus on the positive steps you have taken and learn to appreciate the beautiful person that you are today. A positive mindset can get you through a lot of the rough times, as I've said before, sometimes you have to fake it until you make it. You are not permanently screwed.

Go Sox!

greatful

Nice to see all three of you have graduated to the next level! I forgot to ask, did anyone blast some Chumbawamba at day 30? Maybe Pomp and Circumstance at day 60 is in order?

Unfortunately, it's like the name of one of our most inspiring members - Motivation Follows Action

Linux - stupid penguins

creative writing = epic fail LOL

Well then may I be a little more blunt? You cannot be in a meaningful relationship with anyone until you take care of your own crap, otherwise your baggage will tend to drag the relationship down. Fix yourself before attempting to pursue your emotional goals. Things will work out a lot better for you that way. You can try to blame adderall, but we are ultimately responsible for our own actions even though we surrendered control to the drugs. You are starting down a good path; focus on that direction. I hope that you make the decision to quit adderall for YOU and not anyone else. Hopefully that isn't too harsh because I edited out quite a bit.