JustinW

#winning I had really messed up dreams when I was dealing with Ambien; enough to make me want to get as far from that stuff as possible. Are the dreams disturbing your sleep cycle or are you getting a good night's rest?

We all know that feeling, but the general concensus is that it was a lie. You have made the first step in a remarkable and difficult journey that will make you a better, healthier, stronger person in the end.

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I should probably join the gym again also; I've been rather derelict about my health these past couple of months.

@FW - Less than a week to go! I hope that you and LL have a nice reward planned for yourselves in a couple of days; you deserve it.

180mg is a lot to be taking in one day, is there anyone with the fortitude to control your pill intake while you taper down?

Another sober bride to be, good for you Tess!

I use Albuterol on occasion Good memory, the feline in question was quickly vacated from the premises. We still have a small dog; my preference would be no pets but she doesn't seem to be in too much of a hurry to shuffle this mortal coil.

Amen to that! "I'm pulling for you. We're all in this together" and "keep your stick on the ice" Seriously though, take it one day at a time and remember that feeling like a kid and acting like a kid are not always a bad thing.

Thanks for the reality check Ashley. It's nice to hear that some people get my sense of humor, I know it can be really dry at times. My 1 word for the day; "greatful" (I'm sure that I've used it before but who says that we can't be repetitious)

I got fed up with not being able to breath at night so I went to the doctor yesterday. The highlight of my visit was when we talked about my ADHD. She asked if I wanted to go back on adderall or try a different medication and I told her that I don't want to go down that road and that I would work on developing my own coping mechanisms. She asked if I planned out most of my work for the mornings and I told her that there is nothing about my life right now that even resembles the word "plan". I am greatful to have a medical professional that is genuinely concerned about my life. We discussed the options for my breathing problems and there were no alternatives to a 6 day treatment of Prednisone. She wants to try Singulair for a long term possibility but I need to run that by my aviation doctor to see if it will affect my medical certificate.

@FW - just 9 days to go, I know that at times you have probably felt like 60 days is an insurmountable task but look at you now; 9 days is like a walk in the park! @LL - 3/4 of the way through 60 days! That is awesome. We all experience the ebb and flow of bad days to good days. Believe me when I say that the good days will start to outnumber the bad ones. I send my respect to SS9, FW, LL, and Lunax for your achievements in this thread and I wish inner peace for all of you.

FW took the words right out of my mouth. Patience and determination; when that fails rely on your support network (this includes all of the wonderful people here). This means that you will need to be honest with the people around you in order for them to help you. You should consider talking to your prescribing doctor also to make sure that they will no longer supply you with the prescription.

Way to go Ashley! I've been to college about 5 different times and haven't been able to achieve that elusive degree. It is a huge accomplishment.

Thanks for listening, I probably sound manic or unstable at times but it's just a combination of being impulsive, impatient, and scatterbrained. I try to be as honest as possible about my thoughts and feelings.

I love feeling useful

Oh yes, I definitely have ADHD. ADHD helped me explore a wide variety of opportunities pre-adderall and while I was on adderall. I seem to have lost that. Thank you for making me write that out because it made me realize that I probably just need to relax and focus more on recovery right now. I think lack of sleep, laziness, and lack of progress on a lot of fronts (even though I knocked out a bunch of work this morning) is just catching up with me today that and I missed lunch.

Thanks man, I appreciate it. The video ended up frustrating a little though because I'm having a tough time finding my way lately. I'm trying to find that balance between peace and complacency. There is always a part of me that is looking for the next step and that part of me is screaming that it can't find the next step and that there is no progress being made toward the next step. That part of me wants to be the workaholic but it knows that working hard in my current situation will provide no personal gain so it sees no point. I am like a ship without a rudder tossed about in a storm (in my professional life). I am not sure if I should listen to the little guy or stifle him. Anyways, thanks for listening.

I can see both sides of the argument, if a relapse doesn't reset the amount of clean days then it cheapens the accomplishment. I think that it's a personal judgement call. If he is OK with ignoring the relapse and it helps him not relapse again then who cares how many days he says are under his belt. I view it as our own personal "jar of dirt" "...This is a jar of dirt" "Yes" "Is the jar of dirt going to help?" "If you don't want it, give it back." "No" "Then it helps" --Tia Dalma and Jack Sparrow

@FW - I understand the feeling of not being able to make it through the day; take today to recharge your batteries and tomorrow will be a better day.

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@Lunax - every day on adderall seemed like a slam dunk, so we forgot that life can be crappy some days. The trick is to realize that it is OK to have a bad day and not let it get you too down. Keep venting and that ton of bricks will magically get lighter! @FW - SCORE!!!

I used to smoke 14 years ago and I worked in a full service car wash that exposed me to all sorts of airborne nasties and I have dealt with a few plastic fires (nasty vapors) requiring the use of dry chemical extinguishers (more nastiness) and I did inhale some chlorine gas last summer. I have had allergy sensitivity tests done two times in preparation for allergy shots; I'm allergic to a lot of things as my shot regimen included 3 shots. I was unable to continue them after 2006 when I switched jobs. So yeah, everything points to "I'm screwed"

The Mucinex appears to be working but I am concerned that it is only alleviating the symptoms and not the root cause. I don't want to have to be on another drug long term besides Allegra (not that I really want to be on it either).

Wow Cat, you are leaps and bounds away from where I am at personally and I'm only 1 month behind you; congratulations! You are an inspiration.