Krax

I sometimes think the anticipation was a better high then the drug itself

Monolithic

19

Good job, I did the something the other day with one of my kids, and I think it's a real step forward.

Tyranny

Mutation

sorry to hear about your relapse. I can tell you from my recent experience though, that the warts may be unrelated. About 9 months ago I had one on my hand. Then my face. Then I shaved and they spread. Dermatologist told me it was common for them to spread, especially when shaving. He injected this yeast concoction into my skin, to trick my immune system into thinking there was an infection (that's why warts don't go away, the body does not recognize them as infections), anyways apparently I'm one of the 15% of the population this treatment works for, and they went away. There are some independent pharmacists who make a special cream to use too. My attempts at over the counter treatments were unsuccessful. I'd go to the doctor right away about those. Hang in there.

Woody Allen quote: Eighty percent of success is showing up.

My experience when taking SSRIs post amphetamine was that they made me more tired

Nope

Congrats on 20 days that's awesome but be ready for low energy levels to last awhile longer. I thank whoever invented Wellbutrin as it sustained me for the first four months I was off of Ritalin. At that point I experienced a resurgence of energy and could no longer tolerate the added activation from Wellbutrin. The point is it took me 4 months, so hang in there.

Ally I think one of the hard things about not using/sobriety is that it never "feels as good" as we hope or anticipate. Reality is not like our life is when getting high. I think most if not all of us feel that way, I still do but then we feel other things that take time and patience to experience. With the variety of stuff you are using I would talk to an addiction professional as you have a concoction of chemicals to deal with, I know you can do this but I wouldn't go at it alone.

I hate to rain on the parade here but this is pretty much how we all felt at the 3-4 week point, unfortunately it doesn't last and I encourage you to be prepared for that.

my wife is the reason I'm still not using. Most people get to the point of having to tell their doctor, but I just had to tell her, back on November 15, 2012, and she's kept me from relapsing. She tells me the same stuff, how much easier going I am, and how much better I am with the kids, ect, so hang in there it's worth it. Our marriage is better in every way with me off of speed. The funny thing is, is in the last year I've done better at work - even though it feels like I'm useless,when I look at the end results I see that I've actually been more productive .

Remember it's not linear, in a day to day sense. I did not experience the "every day is better" recovery like someone else above said, it just wasn't like that. Also, it took 4 months before I could quit wellbutrin - where I had enough energy on my own, and I think others have found that 4 month mark to be significant too.

Cool didn't know about that

I'm bummed it's almost over, but will be looking forward to the Saul Goodman spinoff

Exodus

Anarchy

scattered

what are the names of the apps you are referring to?

How long have you been clean for?

That was a classic post, I'm copying and pasting this one

MFA from reading your recent posts or at least some of then it doesn't sound like you are f***ing stuff up at all

It's the best