Doge
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sorry to hear about your relapse. 5 months was a really stressful time for me and I remember I had a meltdown around then
Sorry to hear about your relapse but very glad to hear you have come back.
Best wishes
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this guy hasn't been around in a while
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you should stop taking them this weekend, i bet you will be able to function by monday if you relax for the weekend even if you aren't quite at your best.
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those dogs are so funny!
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i remember trying to tell myself "you can't live your whole life in one day."
so chilling. i never thought this myself but when you say it it really takes me back
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awwww what kind of doges? i love doges
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personal trainer is a great investment of money i think
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i guess my point is that it made me question whether some symptoms during recovery are maybe just natural behavior- sober people get irritated, have low energy etc.
yes, this is true. and it is hard to come to terms with but is part of the process
that thrilled giddy feeling adderall gave you does happen naturally, but it is fleeting and doesn't always last long. you can still get into the zone though, but it is taxing on the brain so it naturally can't last forever.
thats why its so important to develop good discipline and working habits (something you just cant do on adderall) to make the most out of those precious times
(that being said i'm totally not there yet)
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thats so great to hear
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If you've been using the prescribed dose for 2 months, quitting shouldn't be too painful. But there will still probably be some sort of withdrawal process.
There shouldn't be any reason you can't tell your bf that you were prescribed medication and it's been affecting your personality negatively. This will also explain why you won't be yourself either for a couple of weeks while you adapt.
The adaptation back to normality, if you've only been using 2 months, should be relatively quick.
I'll tell you the same thing I told you 6 weeks ago. Quit now. If you are worried about quitting now, you will be in for HELL if you let this go on for a year. And trust me that year will fucking FLY by on speed, which is what you are taking.
Everyone on this site will probably say the same thing. If your job is making you feel like you have no other option than to resort to adderall usage. QUIT the fucking job! It's not worth it!
You are rolling down a gradual decline right now, headed for a very steep drop-off. Much easier to stand up, dust yourself off, and walk away from it then have to climb out of the fiery canyon of hell that you will inevitably fall into if you continue using this drug.
You know what you need to do. You said it yourself in your post.
Post on this forum lots for support. You can get through this "fairly easily" if you quit now.
I am truly sorry if I sound overly direct and harsh, but I want very badly for you not to feel the burning agony that you are in for if you don't. We are all here for you.
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just keep staying away from those pills at all costs. you are doing great.
do you mean advice on working out? or just in general.
if you meant the first, for starters what is your height/weight/age/gender?
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yeah its basically one big adderallic fantasy
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for me it's the gym. i will screw up everything i've worked for if I binge for a couple days (which is exactly what I would do if i got my hands on some)
this is how i stay away from weed too, because I want to run and play racket sports and basketball etc. I don't want to be an antisocial hermit smoking pot in my apartment by myself, texting people to cancel prior engagements and games. I've been fighting with myself tooth and nail (going through some very miserable times) for every inch of improvement and it can all be flushed down the toilet by a relapse.
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your choice. i find caffeine in moderate doses to make me really happy. but it only works once per day.
first cup of coffee in the morning - makes my world amazing for a while
second cup in the afternoon - keeps me functioning for the rest of the afternoon
third cup of coffee in the evening - big mistake, just makes me feel like crap and i wont get a good nights sleep
glad you are feeling better and not feeling depressed anymore. for what its worth i've noticed a huge improvement in my own mood since after 8 months. adderall barely crosses my mind every few days but I've forgotten what it feels like to dwell on it. "too many things to do tomorrow" is my immediate next thought.
(i don't even associate adderall with productivity anymore, it was just a stress relief to indulge in abusively)
hope that is a bit encouraging at least. keep your head up
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I feel like sometimes I say something and it comes off strange to me - as if I didn't just say it.
thats why i love this comic, lol
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around the 4-5 month mark was probably when I truly forgot what it was like to be on adderall.
you may be doing the same thing when you look back on it so fondly.
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and i thought giving babies benadryl was bad....
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welcome back. nice to meet you!
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does this make you feel better? a little? maybe?
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only you know yourself. i just know that i relapsed over a dozen times after staying clean for 2-3 months because I (as in my inner addict version of me) simply convinced myself things werent that bad. Since I hadn't told my dealer why I stopped he just gave me more.
im just lucky my dealer was a friend who cared about my well-being. once I finally broke down and told him what was going on (about me binging for days straight) finally, he was like, "wow holy shit. yeah i'm not giving you any more ever"
some scumbag would have just tripled the price and continued to supply me once he realized I was addicted
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Im so happy to hear you told your doctor the truth. So many people refuse to do this and it hurts their chances of true recovery because they can just go back to the pills later when they change their mind.
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When you were still using, during the weeks that followed your binges, did you socialize less? I'm betting you experienced the same thing then but just didn't notice as much since you were looking forward to your pills, and those thoughts dominated your mind against little insecurities like this.
I may be projecting, but this is how I feel about myself looking back now.
Your eloquence will return. Your brain just has to heal. You will be better than ever in time I promise!
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It's haunting how similar our stories, yet they take place in different settings with difference ... characters?
The perceived climb to greatness and the inevitable fall to despair is such a common thread in all of our stories.
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addiction is more complicated than just dopamine/oxytocin
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This theory is really consistent with the fact that when people completely change their surroundings and start a new life somewhere else they have a better chance of staying clean. Also, this is probably why rehab clinics work so well.