With adderall addiction the side effects generally outweigh the good it does. Once clean for awhile, the amazing things you accomplished while on Adderall will seem less amazing. The drug is a liar, it gives you false confidence that keeps you in the addiction. You just believe you are more productive on adderall, the reality is you've probably filled your day with busywork. Adderall is a mindfuck. Take some time and read the articles on this site. It may not all sink in at once when you are ready to quit for you the decision will be simple