Zerokewl

I was talking to someone they asked where would you be if you had not quit? Trying to imagine my life if I had continued using. Would I be still careening towards a disaster or worse? As hard as this path is I think its easier than if I continued to use.

morning https://soundcloud.com/ramrecords/andy-c-haunting?in=endorphinpusher/sets/shambhala-2014

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Really touched about all your responses. I need to process everything (especially what Cassie wrote), clearly i need to change something. Readjusting to work life is part of recovery. I just need to keep bashing my way through all of this. Eventually something will work.

Thanks all I am touched by your responses. I really dont know where I would be with you all. I really took too much on too early. The other project went well and all is not lost, I really made some strides since December. Quit Once you are correct I need to lower my expectations in my first year of recovery. Occasional & Marrisa thanks I really relate to what you are saying... we need to solve this! Its not hopeless. Jon thank-you we are so close in recovery time I think we are on the same page in terms in recovery. Liltex I am going to do every thing on that list starting tomorrow today! I'm taking this as a minor set back. I'm going to try to make the most of this week. Get over it get done. Move on. Keep moving. Throughout my recovery I've been fascinated by skateboard videos and the sheer number times a skater has to fall to land that one elusive trick. This is one of those scenarios. I just have to get up and keep getting up. The other project I did went well! I completed my first major Adderall free project. So there is that focus on the positive and who can forget Mango my crazy cat.

I just got fired from a project I was working on. I was behind deadline and was taking forever to do stuff. Partially because I was working on another project. But mostly because I spend hours everyday paralyzed with anxiety and depression. Fighting through it I manage to get things done. But my to-do list grows and I am self employed and nothing is ever done. It feel humiliated that I am unable to get done everything. So I procrastinate by smoking and telling myself I deserve a break. I experienced this anxiety before adderall and was one of the reasons I sought a solution through medication. Frozen in indecision and far to worried what others think. Every project I do is so laced with painful anxiety it is small wonder I complete anything. I need to find a way to overcome this and be able to get work done. I fell overwhelmed by everything and I'm not the sort to half ass something. My life is a total mess and I can't deal with the things that are destroying me internally.

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Maisy14*, So glad you found us and decided to quit very early into your use of Adderall. I imagine recovery will be short for you given your short period of use. I expect you will be fatigued for a awhile but this should pass quickly. You may want to mention to your doctor your symptoms to your doctor cutting off your supply is the best way to prevent relapse.

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This thread about the physical side effects is good relapse prevention. http://forum.quittingadderall.com/topic/1764-has-adderall-affected-your-physical-health/

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Freelance Friday -

Good work Frank. Early recovery is rough the lethargy and depression eventually lifts and little by little things improve.

spring -

Launched - my first major adderall free project

i struggle with procrast

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almost done. My project.

You'll be back!

5 days is still pretty early. I wouldn't wait for creativity to return it just will. One day you will be like hey that was creative that thing I said/wrote/draw. You can try writing a song about quitting adderall for now. I just wrote the chorus for you to help get started. "Addderall makes me so maderall bout what I haderall do-do-do-do"

Netflix, sleep. I slept through a lot of my early recovery. I think the brain just shuts down for maintenance.

Big crazy week, gonna get some projects launched! I think I can I think I can.