For those of you who quit for 4 months or more. How many times did you relapse before quitting? Or if its easier to answer, for what time period after deciding to quit did you continue to relapse before finally succeeding at walking away for good.
I am sure this is a familiar story, but I feel I just change my mind after a certain point and decide I'm not addicted and my life will be better with adderall. Then sure enough I'll find myself strung out after an all nighter after doing half a months supply in 36 hours. I'll beat myself up and absolutely hate myself for it and start my "clean days timer" all over again.
The reason I ask is that I want to know if I can even realistically do this or if I need to seek additional help. I'm afraid to do this because I there will be drastic consequences to doing this of course, so I would really prefer to do this on my own.
