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Shows I really enjoyed on (Canadian) Netflix: House of Cards Boss* Hemlock Grove The Fall Camelot Dexter The 100* Arrested Development The Office* Downtown Abbey Once upon a time Community* Marco Polo* Derek* Rescue Me Trailer Park Boys Breaking Bad* Orange is the new Black* * - my personal favorites Some of these aren't available in the US (though the US selection is far superior if you ask me). Checkout this addon if you want to access other regions (I'm amazed at what Mexico has!) http://hola.org/

I'll go back and edit the list as I think of more. There are plenty I didn't mention.

Shows I really enjoyed on (Canadian) Netflix: House of Cards Boss* Hemlock Grove The Fall Camelot Dexter The 100* Arrested Development The Office* Downtown Abbey Once upon a time Community* Marco Polo* Derek* Rescue Me Trailer Park Boys Breaking Bad* * - my personal favorites Some of these aren't available in the US (though the US selection is far superior if you ask me). Checkout this addon if you want to access other regions (I'm amazed at what Mexico has!) http://hola.org/ Not on netflix, but if you are comfortable obtaining tv shows by "other means" these are AMAZING shows: Game of Thrones (obviously!) The Wire (my favorite show of all time) Shameless (this is a guilty pleasure of mine) I probably watched all of these during recovery, since I went through the binge/crash/recover cycle every month or so for the last 2 years. I was a pro at recoverying hahaha (it's not really funny but what else can I do now but laugh?). Happy resting!

A couple of ideas to help get the positivity juices flowing as soon as possible. Sorry if I am pushing these exercises too heavily but I LOVE them and they helped me so much in initial recovery. 1) Every time you get up, do a stretch routine. I personally do these 3 times a day and it helps my back feel great. And the pulling helps your grip strength a lot, which is important for helping your body *feel* strong. http://www.easyvigour.net.nz/fitness/pilatessketches/HamStrngStre2.gif People use towels or rubber bands but I find that an old pair of jeans works best. 2) Try those wall-pushups I mentioned before. They are a great way to get your blood flowing again naturally, and start getting your strength back. http://www.fitnesstipoftheday.net/fittip/wp-content/uploads/2015/01/wall-pushups.jpg They are harder than they look! You can focus on keeping your back perfectly straight, which is a good way to help those inner balancing muscles get stronger again. If you are anything like me, you spent a lot of time sitting in a chair hunched over a desk with horrible posture. This is a great way to start undoing that damage. Do them every day until you can do three sets of 20. Then switch to once every 2 days until you can do 3 sets of 40. 3) Jump back into bed and turn the TV back on and resume snacking. You'll probably have a nice little head rush (A NATURAL ONE ) to make watching TV feel better, and then the calories from your snacks will at least partially be channeled towards your muscles getting stronger. I emphasize these two things in particular because they worked SO WELL for me during those early days where I just didn't want to do ANYTHING, not even the things I enjoyed.

So how are you doing Bev? Did you manage to resist those little bastards? Is this day 2 for you? Keep us updated in the 30-day challenge thread. It's a great way to get constant encouragement and validation in your journey! http://forum.quittingadderall.com/topic/1742-the-30-day-challenge-reloaded-welcome-all/page-24 Also tickers are fun.

Watching any good TV shows while you rest? I'm hooked on House of Cards right now.

Yeah I remember day 1 crash here, I've had so many cravings and tried so hard to get more at times. I'm glad I was cut off, its so easy to forget what it was like to be spending an entire day typing a post here in tears half the time. Freedom feels so good. Keep posting about it to remind us all!

Try your best to just look forward and not care about what she says to you or thinks about you. This is your life. At the end of the day you have to live with the consequences of your choices so nobody has the right to manipulate you or pressure you into making a choice that isn't right for you. I know it's hard and that probably doesn't help much but it's all I got. Hang in there!

God yes. I smoked a lot of pot and ate a lot of comfort food. About a month into recovery I went out to pubs a lot with friends (I started becoming known as a bad influence on people, hehe) just because I was depressed and couldn't focus on work. This wasn't necessarily a good thing but I seemed to have shaken it and I am where I am now so I don't regret it. As for the first few days, having a few beers isn't so bad to help relax I don't think, just make sure you're nourishing yourself. Note: I wouldn't advice getting drunk to the point of a hangover, then you'll REALLY want to take more pills. Plus, you're body really needs to heal from being in over-drive. I'd say go with food everytime over alcohol.

Right on!!!!!

Enjoy the road to freedom. Relax and take it easy.

I have felt functional since 30 days. But honestly there have been lots of ups and downs; and I still don't feel like I'm 100% energy wise. As many people say quite accurately, "it's not a linear process". What I think people need to know is that although it takes a long time to get back to your old self, it does not take long to notice the rewards of quitting.

You're getting close to a full year! That's so exciting!

In about a month I'm going home to visit my parents. They've never known about my dark secret over the past couple years; most of the time I would go home to see them and just be coming down from a crash and I would dry out during our visit. They didn't know it, of course, but they always seemed to get the "luxury" of dealing with the shitty version of me. I'm really looking forward to showing them the new me!

Sorry guys I was really craving an eating binge and was trying to play it off as a joke, and give it a positive spin. It's really only as bad as you let it get. Plenty of that weight is muscle mass finally returning. My plan was, I would just give myself a buffet ticket and do whatever it took to escape from withdrawals, but also started a really gentle exercise routine. http://growingstronger.nutrition.tufts.edu/images/wallpushup.gif I swear you can literally start these as early as day one, and even then it feels GOOD. Also this stretch helped so much with my lower back which I'm SURE I did some serious damage too with all those 30 hour periods where I never left the chair. http://www.healthytimesblog.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/hamstring-stretch.jpg Yeah you'll gain weight, but your shoulders and back will stop hurting and aching all the time; and your posture will improve. You'll be able to move again and have faith in your body. I'm not trying to sell you a workout routine (sorry if it seems that way) but I'm just trying to say that one day you'll look back and laugh at yourself for letting weight gain get in your way of quitting! Everything gets better when you quit, if you give it enough time. Even the apparent negatives turn into positives before long.

The first time I tried it, my first reaction was jealousy towards those who had a prescription. How nice it must be to have (what at the time seemed like) unlimited access to something that seemed to fix any problem I could ever have. Fast forward to now and my heart breaks for people who were put into that hopeless situation.

So you quit for a whole year? That's longer than I've EVER stayed clean since I first started experimenting. That proves you can live without it! I'm only blunt because one of the veteran users here (quit-once) gave me a kinda harsh reality check and it really helped me take that leap of courage and finally cut myself off. Just remember that you never truly killed your personality, otherwise you wouldn't be here or even give a shit anymore. Adderall is just trying to smother you. But if you remove those handcuffs, your true self will eventually shine through again! And if you ask me, one day of pure clean sobriety is worth 1000 days of chemical induced craziness. I myself have barely been clean, and have yet to experience a craving-free day since I quit but even still if I were to die tomorrow I'd still be glad for these last 10 weeks of reality.

All this talk of snacks and pillows is making me miss those recovery days, which were almost fun in their own strange way. Anyone interested in a pizza eating contest? Whoever gains the most weight wins! I bet I can out eat all of you combined. *evil laugh*

"There was no "you may not ever feel real happiness again" label on the bottle." If only there were. It damn well belongs there as a legitimate warning.

smhjen: If you are willing to be honest with your doctor, and your doctor is good and actually listens to you, maybe you can discuss this with them and the doctor can help work with you to figure out whether tapering or cold turkey will work best. Tapering was not an option for me but I wouldn't write it off entirely (especially if your relation with adderall has been a long one). If you are cut back to half the dose and just end up taking it twice as fast, then you could let your doctor know this and you can decide what to do from there? Worst case scenario, it doesn't work, and you have to resort to cold turkey, which is rewarding in its own right. Because you get to start racking up "clean" days on your calendar which before long start to feel really good!

Make yourself a big serving of comfort food and drink lots of fluids. No matter how strung out I ever was this always made me feel better at least temporarily. Please see my other reply to your other thread.

Ok I hate to tell people what to do, but I'm going to tell you what to do. Having us read your posts (we are happy to do so and we will continue to do so!) and relate to them might make you feel less alone, but it won't solve your problem. Step 1) First things first, I demand that you stop being so hard on yourself. This is a viciously addictive chemical and it's not your fault that you were force fed them as a child. So take a minute now, go get a big glass of water (because we all need water) and just forgive yourself. I'm sure you aren't perfect (none of us are) but you do not nearly deserve all the guilt and blame you are putting on your shoulders. And while we're counting, my personal record is 300 mg in a single day. So if you did 450 mg in 4 days, I'd say you're being pretty responsible in comparison. (my attempt at comic relief). Step 2) Decide whether you want to continue in this manner, or quit. You say you are afraid of the withdrawals and facing life without your pills, and every single one of us can understand that. But it's pretty clear that you know this cannot continue. And if you'll forgive me for being blunt, it sounds like if you keep going the way you're going, things will get much worse - and probably not long from now. Step 3) Cut off your supply. I kind of assumed here that the answer to step 2 is that you really DO want to quit. But if you want to keep going, that's your choice and nobody here will judge you or think less of you. By cutting off your supply, I mean come clean to your doctor(s) and just tell them you are addicted and cannot quit. They will immediately cut you off (I know this is terrifying, but I promise that terror turns into freedom and joy before too long!). If we aren't talking doctors, and you're getting it from friends, tell them you need to be cut off and hope that they will respect that. If they won't, then they aren't your friends and you don't owe them any loyalty. Threaten to tell their doctor they are distributing their prescriptions (hey nobody likes a rat I know....) because you need to put yourself first. If your situation is more complicated, then tell us and we will work with you to find a solution! Use a private message if you don't want to risk ratting yourself out online. You mentioned that you don't work. Maybe this is a blessing right now because you will need lots of time to heal. There are a lot of good shows on netflix right now. Think of it as a vacation from abuse and try to enjoy the binge snacking and lazing around that your body and brain desperately need. We are your friends here, and we will help you get through this. The leap is scary but the thing is we all jump together!

IT IS NOT JUST YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!! I PROMISE! If you feel that coming clean to your mother is too much to bear, consider telling your doctor? I'm pretty sure they have to keep that information private. It's scary to take that leap but it feels so good to be free. I PROMISE you that cutting off my supply was the ONLY way to ensure a successful recovery. Maybe it might work for you too? At least consider it? Personally, I have only told my 'doctor' and one friend. Nobody in my family knows and if I tell them in the future it will be 100% voluntary. We're your friends here, and we want to help! Please tell us how we can help you take that first step! Its painfully clear that the real you wants out of this mess!

"Get plenty of snacks and fluff your pillow." +1

Cold turkey. People who have never binged may have a much better chance of tapering but I certainly can't say because all I ever did was binge. As soon as I took the first pill, the compulsion to continuously take more would absolutely *ROAR* inside of me (oh yeah, and the need for cigarettes).