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I can't stand the underwoods. They are vipers, even if charming. I think I really like the show because of the addicts in them. Doug, the alcoholic and Peter who is addicted to alcohol and cocaine. Watching their stories unfold is interesting. I really feel intense empathy towards them and their pain. I think it's no stretch to make the connection with my own struggles. It's kind of funny; to be honest I don't think the show is that good, but I keep watching mainly because I really am interested in Doug as a character.

I forgot to mention. Congrats on 5 months! That's amazing!

Most importantly, let me assure you that soon enough you WILL DO stuff. Just give your body time to rest right now that is what matters most right now.

Disclaimer: I am honestly a bad influence in the snack department. I may have overdone it, but I don't regret it.

I'm so glad you joined us!! You are a fantastic person. You don't sound crazy. Just hang in there and try to relax. Try to just forget about DOING Shit for a while and just BE. Every day you go without giving in to those little piece of shit pills is a HUGE victory and you should celebrate it (with a snack!).

I feel like my working vocabulary has been chopped in half. Amen brother. I do notice improvements over time, but I'm still not back to normal. I do, however, have faith that I will eventually return to my normal self. As for the voices, I don't know when they will go away. I'm sorry to tell you that. All I can do is reaffirm what you already know: they will never go away if you go back to the pills. Please don't do it. Things can only get better from here: remember that always!

Thanks Cassie! I've been meaning to check out bloodlines but i hadn't heard of the others before. I will put them on my list!

Shows I really enjoyed on (Canadian) Netflix: House of Cards Boss* Hemlock Grove The Fall Camelot Dexter The 100* Arrested Development The Office* Downtown Abbey Once upon a time Community* Marco Polo* Derek* Rescue Me Trailer Park Boys Breaking Bad* Orange is the new Black* * - my personal favorites Some of these aren't available in the US (though the US selection is far superior if you ask me). Checkout this addon if you want to access other regions (I'm amazed at what Mexico has!) http://hola.org/

I'll go back and edit the list as I think of more. There are plenty I didn't mention.

Shows I really enjoyed on (Canadian) Netflix: House of Cards Boss* Hemlock Grove The Fall Camelot Dexter The 100* Arrested Development The Office* Downtown Abbey Once upon a time Community* Marco Polo* Derek* Rescue Me Trailer Park Boys Breaking Bad* * - my personal favorites Some of these aren't available in the US (though the US selection is far superior if you ask me). Checkout this addon if you want to access other regions (I'm amazed at what Mexico has!) http://hola.org/ Not on netflix, but if you are comfortable obtaining tv shows by "other means" these are AMAZING shows: Game of Thrones (obviously!) The Wire (my favorite show of all time) Shameless (this is a guilty pleasure of mine) I probably watched all of these during recovery, since I went through the binge/crash/recover cycle every month or so for the last 2 years. I was a pro at recoverying hahaha (it's not really funny but what else can I do now but laugh?). Happy resting!

A couple of ideas to help get the positivity juices flowing as soon as possible. Sorry if I am pushing these exercises too heavily but I LOVE them and they helped me so much in initial recovery. 1) Every time you get up, do a stretch routine. I personally do these 3 times a day and it helps my back feel great. And the pulling helps your grip strength a lot, which is important for helping your body *feel* strong. http://www.easyvigour.net.nz/fitness/pilatessketches/HamStrngStre2.gif People use towels or rubber bands but I find that an old pair of jeans works best. 2) Try those wall-pushups I mentioned before. They are a great way to get your blood flowing again naturally, and start getting your strength back. http://www.fitnesstipoftheday.net/fittip/wp-content/uploads/2015/01/wall-pushups.jpg They are harder than they look! You can focus on keeping your back perfectly straight, which is a good way to help those inner balancing muscles get stronger again. If you are anything like me, you spent a lot of time sitting in a chair hunched over a desk with horrible posture. This is a great way to start undoing that damage. Do them every day until you can do three sets of 20. Then switch to once every 2 days until you can do 3 sets of 40. 3) Jump back into bed and turn the TV back on and resume snacking. You'll probably have a nice little head rush (A NATURAL ONE ) to make watching TV feel better, and then the calories from your snacks will at least partially be channeled towards your muscles getting stronger. I emphasize these two things in particular because they worked SO WELL for me during those early days where I just didn't want to do ANYTHING, not even the things I enjoyed.

So how are you doing Bev? Did you manage to resist those little bastards? Is this day 2 for you? Keep us updated in the 30-day challenge thread. It's a great way to get constant encouragement and validation in your journey! http://forum.quittingadderall.com/topic/1742-the-30-day-challenge-reloaded-welcome-all/page-24 Also tickers are fun.

Watching any good TV shows while you rest? I'm hooked on House of Cards right now.

Yeah I remember day 1 crash here, I've had so many cravings and tried so hard to get more at times. I'm glad I was cut off, its so easy to forget what it was like to be spending an entire day typing a post here in tears half the time. Freedom feels so good. Keep posting about it to remind us all!

Try your best to just look forward and not care about what she says to you or thinks about you. This is your life. At the end of the day you have to live with the consequences of your choices so nobody has the right to manipulate you or pressure you into making a choice that isn't right for you. I know it's hard and that probably doesn't help much but it's all I got. Hang in there!

God yes. I smoked a lot of pot and ate a lot of comfort food. About a month into recovery I went out to pubs a lot with friends (I started becoming known as a bad influence on people, hehe) just because I was depressed and couldn't focus on work. This wasn't necessarily a good thing but I seemed to have shaken it and I am where I am now so I don't regret it. As for the first few days, having a few beers isn't so bad to help relax I don't think, just make sure you're nourishing yourself. Note: I wouldn't advice getting drunk to the point of a hangover, then you'll REALLY want to take more pills. Plus, you're body really needs to heal from being in over-drive. I'd say go with food everytime over alcohol.

Right on!!!!!

Enjoy the road to freedom. Relax and take it easy.

I have felt functional since 30 days. But honestly there have been lots of ups and downs; and I still don't feel like I'm 100% energy wise. As many people say quite accurately, "it's not a linear process". What I think people need to know is that although it takes a long time to get back to your old self, it does not take long to notice the rewards of quitting.

You're getting close to a full year! That's so exciting!

In about a month I'm going home to visit my parents. They've never known about my dark secret over the past couple years; most of the time I would go home to see them and just be coming down from a crash and I would dry out during our visit. They didn't know it, of course, but they always seemed to get the "luxury" of dealing with the shitty version of me. I'm really looking forward to showing them the new me!

Sorry guys I was really craving an eating binge and was trying to play it off as a joke, and give it a positive spin. It's really only as bad as you let it get. Plenty of that weight is muscle mass finally returning. My plan was, I would just give myself a buffet ticket and do whatever it took to escape from withdrawals, but also started a really gentle exercise routine. http://growingstronger.nutrition.tufts.edu/images/wallpushup.gif I swear you can literally start these as early as day one, and even then it feels GOOD. Also this stretch helped so much with my lower back which I'm SURE I did some serious damage too with all those 30 hour periods where I never left the chair. http://www.healthytimesblog.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/hamstring-stretch.jpg Yeah you'll gain weight, but your shoulders and back will stop hurting and aching all the time; and your posture will improve. You'll be able to move again and have faith in your body. I'm not trying to sell you a workout routine (sorry if it seems that way) but I'm just trying to say that one day you'll look back and laugh at yourself for letting weight gain get in your way of quitting! Everything gets better when you quit, if you give it enough time. Even the apparent negatives turn into positives before long.

The first time I tried it, my first reaction was jealousy towards those who had a prescription. How nice it must be to have (what at the time seemed like) unlimited access to something that seemed to fix any problem I could ever have. Fast forward to now and my heart breaks for people who were put into that hopeless situation.

So you quit for a whole year? That's longer than I've EVER stayed clean since I first started experimenting. That proves you can live without it! I'm only blunt because one of the veteran users here (quit-once) gave me a kinda harsh reality check and it really helped me take that leap of courage and finally cut myself off. Just remember that you never truly killed your personality, otherwise you wouldn't be here or even give a shit anymore. Adderall is just trying to smother you. But if you remove those handcuffs, your true self will eventually shine through again! And if you ask me, one day of pure clean sobriety is worth 1000 days of chemical induced craziness. I myself have barely been clean, and have yet to experience a craving-free day since I quit but even still if I were to die tomorrow I'd still be glad for these last 10 weeks of reality.

All this talk of snacks and pillows is making me miss those recovery days, which were almost fun in their own strange way. Anyone interested in a pizza eating contest? Whoever gains the most weight wins! I bet I can out eat all of you combined. *evil laugh*