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Really sad about your childhood experience. Liltex already said above what I was thinking. I can relate to the whole "DO YOUR HOMEWORK AT THE LIVING ROOM TABLE WHERE WE CAN SEE YOU AND YOU WONT BE DISTRACTED BY VIDEO GAMES" (and then try to do homework while your parents are yelling across the house at each other and the TV/radio is blaring. So happy that you found a better position to be in. Hope you post back soon. Keep us updated!

Awesome to hear! That's a good way to put it. It's totally parallel to a bad relationship partner that you know is destructive to you.

Day 19 confirmed.

I was having huge cravings today. Hardly slept last night, feeling low energy, grumpy, all around crappy day. Then I was hit with a little wave of happy for no reason this afternoon, even though I'm still tired. I really think the really intense cravings (like where you start to feel your freedom of choice and true intentions fighting to stay in the driver's seat) are sign of something good to come after. I hope I can remember that next time I have a shitty day.

Day 16 confirmed.

watching any good TV?

Day 14 and week 2 confirmed!

Awesome! Throwing out pills is something I was never able to do. Welcome to the club!

How did it go?

Day 13 confirmed.

Day 12 confirmed.

Day 11 confirmed.

Oh man I used for 2.5 years and I can TOTALLY relate to this.

If you fight the urge to lie around and just get up and go for that walk, you will be much happier for it. Walking is a great way to stay moving that doesn't put much stress on yourself. Fortunately the adderall withdrawal symptoms are not so unbearable. Withdrawals are definitely not what compell me to take more, but rather the psychological desire which I cannot explain (people call this addiction I guess). An interesting quote from one of the articles on this site that I just found today: "But you, dear reader and former Adderall taker…you know that amphetamines are different from other drugs. They have a different draw. A different kind of person that uses them. People don’t use amphetamines to destroy themselves; they use them in a misguided attempt to save themselves."

Day 10 confirmed.

So happy for you bro! "Relapsey feelings" are usually the sign of a plateau that is about to be broken through. More noticeable improvements to come I say!

So glad you are joining us! You can succeed!

Thanks man! Day 8 confirmed.

I remember reading this before and but reading it now I think I was in stage 6. It's pretty scary looking at the bigger picture like that. Stage 1 duration was shockingly correct for me back then I thought I was being very careful, but it didn't matter.

Day 7 and week 1 confirmed!

Haha, never even clued into that!

Sorry for this thread. Had something to share but I realize I'm not ready. All is well.

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Mike: It sounds like the real you wants to quit. It might be the case that you never would have started the business if not for adderall. What matters most is what you do now. If you think you need you quit you probably will be way better off if you listen to this voice. Those pills are like a love potion (one of the articles on this site expresses that beautifully) they make you love things you wouldn't normally love (maybe even hate?). Either you will learn to truly and genuinely love what you do, or you will get that final push to go look for what you really DO want. Stick around you can do it!