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embrace your hunger don't deny yourself the snacks you crave but remember to eat healthy stuff too, even if you dont feel like cooking you can always break down and just buy pre-made stuff that is quasi-healthy congratulations on your progress so far!

magic man!

just do (1+1) whenever you need to do a 2! sorry to hear you had a bad day :< hope you are feeling better today

Thanks AA!! Carpe: Enjoy your camping trip! It should be very therapeutic to get away from all the technology and craving triggers that go with day to day life.

Ooo yes you are definitely not alone. Congratulations on making such a difficult decision. It will payoff a million times over!

I was a bit late reading this but, this makes me sooooo sooo happy to hear. You've taken the necessary step of reaching out for help to those who can protect you when things get tough! That is the ultimate commitment to quitting for good! Also yeah, the exercise thing. Personally I am a huge advocate of wall pushups. They are nice, easy, and gentle movements but they are great for re-activating your muscles and getting your body ready to be strong again. They gently elevate your heart rate giving you a little boost, without overdoing it. They feel great and even though they look easy.... try to do 3 sets of 40 its more challenging than it looks!

yeah walk up to the most well-liked person there and hit them over the head with a frying pan. then everyone will know you don't play games!

travelling! - living it up in a big city. Been too busy enjoying it and haven't thought of adderall hardly at all last few days

CreativeGuy: Now onward to the 60 day challenge! Congratulations man!!! ItsTIME: Awesome! I can't wait to see your days keep stacking up! Keep up the good work!

You are doing so great!!! Keep it up!!!

Dude. You are doing amazing brother. Keep it up man!!!!! <3

This one was originally intended to be about people but with some interpretive flexibility it applies quite well to those god damn stupid little pills. I am letting them infect my thoughts so much over the past couple months it drives me crazy. So this one is resounding with me. Go Will! I love him.

That is a good point. I may be using the term incorrectly but when I hear "dependence" I think of my body adapting to the drug, which is pretty easy to slide out of with a couple weeks of abstinence. "Addiction" on the other hand, is a fucking BEAST to deal with and (from what I am seeing from the veteran users of this site, and from my own experience of course), freedom from which is a battle that takes years of fighting one day at a time.

I don't think it's miniscule, it's that spark of humanity, of living in the moment. Adderall smothers it to the brink of death. It is a noble reason to quit, and you can do it! I definitely hear you there. I am living that challenge now. I am lazy, I can't stay on task or be disciplined when I really need to. I'm finding that building good habits is really hard, and it's really easy to fall off the wagon and get lazy again and have to start the climb all over again. But the spark, the zest for life, desire to love and be loved, the ability to experience intense and genuine, that's the really important distinction, emotion is worth enduring every failed achievement that comes as a result of quitting. Welcome to the forum; you are among friends. Let us know how we can help you!

I'm going to chime in with agreement as well. To be honest I wince whenever I read something along the lines of "I was supposed to refill my prescription yesterday but I'm not going to do it!". I try to be positive in my response but in reality I'm usually skeptical about the chance of success. Because I swore I would do this for months and months and months and my relapses were like clockwork until I finally just came clean and got myself actually cut off permanently. My advice is don't risk delaying or ruining your recovery just to avoid embarassment.

Woo hoo!!!!!!

Thank you so much for sharing your story. While I do think you are being unnecessarily hard on yourself, I can totally relate to your pain and anger with yourself. Remember adderall is powerful though, and you weren't yourself. Ohhhh man I forgot about the numb feet... They go away when you quit I swear! yep you just nailed it there. I smoked 3 packs in a day one time. I don't even smoke or crave a cigarette in the slightest anymore (or ever did before adderall). I know that feeling. Good part our souls never actually left. I think they just hibernate as a coping mechanism. Robin Williams said that the memory fog people experience looking back on years of drug addiction is actually our consciences going into witness protection program. Definitely a ring of truth to that in my case. Awesome! Congratulations on your great choice and positive plan. We are here for you too welcome to the boards!

it is a great thread

maybe I'll just start eating more bananas then after my last flu-like experience with tyrosine I didn't take another one for quite a while. I took one a couple hours ago about an hour before going to the gym. Maybe exercising right afterwards made my body handle it better and I noticed only positive effects. again though, bananas do taste so much better and no risk of negative side effects!

that one sums up the illusion of productivity quite well

waking up is a process. that is for sure People who don't even drink coffee.... they blow my mind.

I hope you really have found something that works for you. And I don't mean to come across as negative but it is worth noting that I for one never noticed any of the negative side effects of adderall when I first used it. I was already hooked (but of course didn't know it yet) by the time I did. I admit I'm talking about stuff I don't know anything about really, but my adderall experience has put a real 'anti-drug' theme on my brain.

Another thing is the part that is entirely psychological. I remember the first few times I took adderall in the library (during the honeymoon phase). When I went to the bathroom and was washing my hands I looked at myself in the mirror and wasted a few minutes because I just couldn't get over how good looking I thought I was, LOL. But sometimes when I'm feeling blue, I look in the mirror and don't really notice my positive traits so much as zero in on the negative ones: blemishes, my lazy eye, how my hair looks like crap, etc. Couple this effect with the slow and steady weight gain from quitting and you have a recipe for a trend which is not worth wasting a thought on! Just stay focused on getting clean and things will just get brighter and better in general.

How bad do you want to quit?

yay i like stalking everyone's tickers