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FW, I am SO happy to hear you are NOT GIVING UP. This is such great news. If at first you don't succeed, TRY AGAIN. Sounds like you have an excellent plan in place. I will pray for you. I know you can do this. And last, but not least just remember you are no different than anyone else. We've all had setbacks in our lives. We've fallen down again and again. But the ability to get back up and keep fighting...those are the ones who win in the end. You are on your way my friend! Hugs!

Time to get back on the horse! LOL

This sounds exciting! Yes, definitely keep us posted if you like it. I'm always looking for good products too!

Very excited to hear how it goes! Please keep us posted.

Thanks InRecovery..waiting for your update soon!

Day 19 of my 30 day challenge and going strong. Ran 26 miles last week. 6 tonight! Feeling great again! Occasional, Are you training for anything right now?

Zool, You are doing soooo good! Make a list of all the reasons you are quitting. Think about the long term repercussions of staying addicted to this pill the rest of your life vs the short term suckiness of quitting. It will get easier the longer you are off it. Right now it sucks! But muster through it and do whatever it takes to make your life easy and enjoyable right now. Go see a movie. Do something you enjoy and keep reminding yourself how much better off you'll be 20 - 30 years from now without a wicked addiction that makes you feel bad about yourself. Think about the pride and joy you feel from resisting and how great it feels to be quitting. You will disappointed with yourself if you go back on them again. No amount of Adderall is going to take away that nagging crappy feeling in your soul that knows you are an addict and falling back into the trap. The "beast" of your addictive voice is rearing it's ugly head right now and try to deceive you in every way shape and form to go back. It wants to destroy you. Remember that. You have to be strong my friend and resist. You will feel so much better about yourself in the end. Don't let it win or steal your inner joy! You CAN do this! Hugs!

Ok you guys. I want to retract/reframe my statement here. I do agree with you guys that you should absolutely have like zero expectations of yourself in the beginning and thinking you will achieve much outside of anything is just a miracle in itself as it is. Especially in the first 30 days, do not push yourself or like Cassie mentioned you will be setting yourself up for failure. However, what I would like to note is that everyone is different. None of us will have the exact same recovery. What worked for me may not work for someone else. We are all unique and there are many paths to recovery. I think it also depends on how long you used Adderall. It's going to be harder the longer you've been taking it. I was only on it for 5-6 years and I started when I was 24. If you are someone that has essentially grown up on Adderall or been taking it 10 years, etc., your process of quitting will most likely be much harder than mine. With all that being said, I just want to relay the message of my own personal experience and what happened for me. I went to detox on November 12, 2010. I was then loaded up on a drug cocktail of Citalopram, Lamictal, and Seroquel as they didn't know what was wrong with me, but thought it was possible I could have bipolar or possibly schizophrenia. So from November -April I was on this drug cocktail. All I did was sleep, eat, go to outpatient classes, and work. I did the absolute bare minimum I hd to. These drugs tranquilized the crap out of me and I had zero energy to do much of anything. I was so out of I felt happy for no reason and just pretty much like a zombie. I finally decided I'd had enough and all I wanted to do was get in shape and get back to feeling "normal". I weaned myself off all 3 drugs over the course of a month. I remember the day so clearly, but April 14th I got to work ran up and saw my friend Kathy and said, "OMG, it's back!!! I forgot how it felt!" I was referring to my anxiety, but I was so ecstatic because I felt like I was bouncing off the walls and all I wanted to do was exercise. So from April on out I just started exercising again outside from running, riding my bike, going to the gym, just anything outdoors really. I was SOOOOO happy to be off all drugs and SOOOOO happy to have energy back. I felt great. But again, this is my experience ONLY and I doubt anyone will travel the same path I did. I think for me, I was so grateful to be off all the tranquilizers, I had crazy motivation to exercise. I went from one extreme to the other so my recovery was completely different. I went from speed to downers to normalcy. I can understand anyone just coming off of speed and not having a desire/motivation to do anything for up to a year. Makes sense to me. Ok, now that I got ALL of that off my chest, I'm going to go meet a running group for a 10 miler. Hope this helps clear up thing a bit. Have a great day everyone!

Great job! Enjoy the weekend off and be as lazy as your little heart desires. You deserve it!

I think the hardest part of any exercise program is the starting. Once you get in a groove and start feeling all the positive effects, it gets way easier and you miss it when you don't do it. I can't promise you that I am always excited or LOVE to exercise as if it just comes naturally to me. It is something I force myself to do at first and then I reap all the amazing benefits after I do it. I actually came up with a little motto this week and it's helping me greatly. My motto is, "I have never regretted a workout or eating healthy." So every day when I wake up and I feel like I want to keep sleeping in I just keep telling myself to go through the motions because I won't regret it later like I will if I sleep in. It's working so far! I can also attest to making some major dietary changes in the past few weeks and am already amazed by how much better I've been feeling. That show, "The Doctor's" said something amazing this week that is really helping me too. Dr. Travis said, "Let food be your medicine." I couldn't agree more! But again, just be gentle on yourself and take things one day at a time and make slow gradual changes. No need to attack everything all at once. Chunk getting healthy down into smaller steps so you'll be able to sustain the quitting process over the long haul. You've got this and you can do this! Have a great day!

Good luck Sweet Caroline! Did you make it to Florida ok? How long have you been on Zoloft? Some of the anti d's can make you gain weight. I tried Citalopram for 6 weeks this winter and it is making it harder than normal to lose the weight I put on. I've been off of it for about 6 weeks and I feel like I'm finally starting to make progress. I wish I were in Florida. That sounds AWESOME right about now!

I'm with you quitonce. I despise the drug companies for prescribing so many drugs out to people without batting an eyelash. Half the time, the meds they are prescribing just cause more problems than the patient originally had to begin with. Then the patient is prescribed more and more drugs to deal with the effects from the first drug. The doctor is happy because he's getting paid more for each script he writes, but yet believing he's doing what's in the best interest of the patient because he's been sold on the drug too. Meanwhile, the patient actually begins to believe they are doomed because every time they turn around they suddenly have another ailment that must be cured with yet another drug. Anyhow, I don't mean to curse the whole system. I just wish they'd be more selective and only give drugs out to people that are absolutely desperate for them and can't live without them. I don't ever want to be caught in that trap again.

Awesome job you two! GDTRFB, I second what Justin said. Just know that you have take a gigantic step forward in improving your long term future and do not get down on yourself for ANYTHING right now. Everyday you don't take Adderall is a HUGE VICTORY. So proud of both of you!!!

Eat healthy and drink lots of H2O. Take vitamins. Do you exercise at all right now?

Whoooo hooooooooo Zoog1212!!!!! You just took the hardest step. Piece of cake from here.

Hi Zoog, I have to start working soon so I have to make this short. If only I could've been your age when I quit. I started around that time and then wasted 5 years of my life being addicted to it. Do yourself a giant favor and quit now while you're young and have the rest of your life to pursue a career and any dream you are passionate about without it. It will be better to start your career Adderall free so you don't ever have to go back comparing what it was like to be on Adderall working vs. not working. Take a year or however long you need to detox and get clean. Get healthy and carve a new life for yourself without it. You will thank yourself 10 years from now you did not stay stuck trapped in addiction to some evil little pill. You CAN do this. Just be gentle with yourself and lean on us for support. We've been there, we know what it's like, and we can help motivate you to stay clean. Hugs my friend!

Cassie, I don't know if I've ever tried sardines, but I the thought of them makes my stomach turn a little bit, lol. Maybe someday I'll get the nerve up and try them, but for now I'm just gonna stick with my tofurky, beans, and soy. Yum. InRecovery, Time to pick up the slack. Let's go! Where is the 10 minute workout?

Ashley, Oh how this post just makes me heart warm! I am so so so happy for you! Two years is such an amazing accomplishment. You just sound so great and I am so proud of you too! Recovery is not always easy and I know you've had struggles along this path as all of us have had at one time or another, you stuck through it and prevailed. Now you are feeling emotionally secure and happy with who you are because you know you've built this life all on your own and not by the hands of some evil little pill. I am just so happy to hear you are doing well and I pray your story inspires other addicts out there who are struggling and don't know how they can survive without Adderall. Sometimes, that's all we need in life.....just a little hope. You have inspired me today. I feel blessed we crossed paths and I can't wait to see what the next 2 years of recovery brings for you in your life. Congratulations!!! Hugs!!

I will pray for you. It sounds like you are really struggling right now and my heart goes out to you. Stay close to this site and we will help support you in your fight to quit. Shoot me a personal message if you need someone to talk to and I will give you my number if you need someone to text/talk to. Do you have anymore left or are you quitting for good right now?

Sweet Caroline, Wow, you have totally inspired me. I bought the book, "Skinny Bitch" and got through about 100 pages today. Then I threw out all of the animal products in my fridge and went grocery shopping. I also watched that video called, "Earthlings" last night. OMG! I am never eating animals again! I checked out your blog too. Awesome! I am so excited to start this journey. Great job Occasional! That's so great. And yes, goooo team veg!! Whooo hooo!

Yes, of course. Make a to do list on an index card and carry it with you wherever you go. This way you won't forget what you're supposed to be doing.

Hi guys! Just checking in. I'm on day 9. Ran 9.26 miles today! I'm so exhausted, but feeling super proud of myself. It's funny, but I swear on everything that starting to exercise again is ALWAYS the hardest part. Once you are in a groove and conditioned, it is so much easier. I am writing this on here so I don't ever fall off again. My goal is to simply stay consistent. It's really helping me to be near by dad right now. The man gets up every day of his life about 4:00 and goes to the gym. He never ever misses a day. He is my inspiration. Hey, by the way, is anyone here a vegetarian? I am thinking about slowly making the transition. Let's go veggies! Zerokewl, Any luck this week so far?

Occasional, This is awesome! I really love your way of viewing Adderall today. I need to come to that acceptance place myself, but realize these are stages you can't force. They come with time and healing. I'm so happy you're at this place already. Brings a lot of peace just thinking about it all from the angle you view it now. Thank you for sharing!

Awesome job Occasional! You are killing it! Checking in day 4! 5 mile run Barbell class Sore, but feeling good!

So happy to hear you're doing better InRecovery. Well, thank God it's easier to kick than Adderall, right? Phew! Would hate for you to have to go through yet another terrible struggle. I hope you don't view this road bump as a total relapse in your recovery, right? You know you are still on the same exact highway. You just got a couple flats, but you are in the process of repairing them and right back on your journey.