LILTEX41

All sounds delicious! Thanks for sharing. I may have to try some of these myself!

Hi, so in my humble opinion it sounds like you are conflicted. You originally started off taking adderall and then got into harder drugs. The drugs lead you into rehab. You got out of rehab and relapsed on heroin. However, you stopped the heroin, but now you are taking adderall again. I guess I am a little confused. Do you consider yourself sober now? Is that what you are asking us? Are you sober if you are taking adderall since the psychiatrist will write you a script? Is that what you mean? It sounds like you made a lot of progress by going to rehab and getting off heroin. That is a major accomplishment! If you continue to take adderall how do you think that will help you moving forward? How was it a problem in the past?

When are you done with school? Can you maybe just try and taper down slowly until finals are over and then quit? If I had to do it again, I would definitely make sure I had a good week I could be totally lethargic and not expected to do a damn thing.

I was like this last week. I am sorry to hear you are down. Are you sure there isn't anything bothering you emotionally?

Does anyone want to move to Denver, lol? I just found the coolest group ever and I want to pack up my bags and leave my life behind! Sober community of 6,000 people + fitness outdoors everyday free!!!! This is so awesome! http://www.phoenixmultisport.org/

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I've never heard your story. Wow, so glad you found your way out!

That is great! It will keep getting easier every time you flex that resistance muscle. Your juice sounds good and delicious!

Hi, Crayathur. I am sorry to hear you are struggling right now. I will say a prayer for you. You CAN do this my friend! Hugs, Liltex

That is so freaking awesome! I know what you mean. I am so happy for you!

So glad you like it, Ashley! Maybe you'll share your feedback with us??

Hey everyone! This is for anyone out there who is struggling with the idea of quitting an addiction. I wanted to share it because I know there are a lot of people that come to this board and are probably very ambivalent to the idea of change. I struggled with sobriety for a LONG time. I'm talking over 15 years of being back and forth. It wasn't until I found this tool that my sobriety finally stuck. Hope you find it as helpful as I did. I got it from Smart Recovery. Enjoy! Four Questions About My Addiction Using the CBA (Cost-Benefit Analysis Tool) 1.What do I enjoy about my addiction, what does it do for me (be specific)? List as many things as you can that you liked about whatever you are/were addicted to. a. Where possible, find alternative ways of achieving the same goals. b. Recognize positive thinking about the addiction as a potential relapse warning sign. c. Realize that there are some things you liked about the addiction you will have to learn to live without. d. List what you enjoy about your addiction so you can ask yourself if it is really worth the price. e. Realize that you aren't stupid; you did get something from your addiction. It just may not be working on your behalf anymore. 2. What do I hate about my addiction, what does it do to me (give specific examples)? List as many of the bad, undesirable results of your addiction as you can. Here it is extremely important that you use specific examples. Specific examples have much greater emotional impact and motivational force! a. Ask yourself honestly "If my addiction was a used car, would I pay this much for it?" b. Review this list often, especially if you are having a lot of positive, happy thoughts about all the great things your addiction did for you. 3. What do I think I will like about giving up my addiction? List what good things you think/fantasize will happen when you stop your addiction. a. This provides you with a list of goals to achieve and things to look forward to as a result of your new addiction free lifestyle. b. This list also helps you to reality test your expectations. If they are unrealistic, they can lead to a disappointment based relapse. 4. What do I think I won't like about giving up my addiction? List what you think you are going to hate, dread or merely dislike about living without your addiction. a. This list tells you what kinds of new coping skills, behaviors and lifestyle changes you need to develop in order to stay addiction free. b. It also serves as another relapse warning list. If all you think about is how much life sucks now that you are not doing your addiction, you are in a relapse thought pattern that is just as dangerous as only focusing on what you liked about your addiction. Notes This is not a do once and forget about it exercise. It is an ongoing project. Most people simply can't remember all of the positive and negative aspects of addiction and recovery at any one time. Furthermore, seeing all the negative consequences of addiction listed in one place is very powerful. On the positive side, no one really knows what they like or don't like about living free of their addiction until they have done so for some time. I know of people who continued to add items to all four questions for a full 6 months. See Also: CBA Worksheet

So glad you like it! I found it so helpful for all the times I really want to drink. I just look at the list of ALL the bad terrible things of my past and constantly remind myself that's the kind of bs I will fall back into if I start using again. I mean I literally dug up every bad incident I could possibly think of and wrote them down in black and white. I just try to imagine what my life will look like in the next 20 years if I continue living it the way I did the past 20 years and that makes it good enough reason to not want to use again. I find that my using brain wants to conveniently forget all the bad things when it wants to get messed up again so this little list is pretty helpful. Like your idea about posting it in the announcements section. I'll do that now. Did you make your list?

Waronwar, I am sober from everything..adderall being my number#1 addiction. This is probably not very bright to put this on a public forum, but sometimes I feel like the more honest I am about it..the more it helps me to stay clean. My previous using history kinda went like this: Pop adderall from the moment I wake up and take it every @ 3 hours and 40 mins Smoke @ a pack of cigs a day Get off work and drink / smoke pot every night till @ 3 -4am...wake up and repeat During times when adderall was not around...other drugs were substituted here and there.. Days off from work...mix of adderall to get chores done..then heavy partying as soon as work accomplished..ok I need to stop I am getting triggered.. Anyhow, I went to rehab and quit everything cold turkey. Quit smoking the day I went into the emergency room and been clean from everything for almost 28 months (besides one bender on alcohol and pot for 2 weeks last september). So that's the old cycle. It was nuts. I'm sure a lot of people on here can relate though. So did you visit the website? If so, what did you think?

Awe, quitonce...that makes me so to hear that! Love you guys!!

Hey everyone! This is for anyone out there who is struggling with the idea of quitting an addiction. I wanted to share it because I know there are a lot of people that come to this board and are probably very ambivalent to the idea of change. I struggled with sobriety for a LONG time. I'm talking over 15 years of being back and forth. It wasn't until I found this tool that my sobriety finally stuck. Hope you find it as helpful as I did. I got it from Smart Recovery. Enjoy! Four Questions About My Addiction Using the CBA (Cost-Benefit Analysis Tool) 1.What do I enjoy about my addiction, what does it do for me (be specific)? List as many things as you can that you liked about whatever you are/were addicted to. a. Where possible, find alternative ways of achieving the same goals. b. Recognize positive thinking about the addiction as a potential relapse warning sign. c. Realize that there are some things you liked about the addiction you will have to learn to live without. d. List what you enjoy about your addiction so you can ask yourself if it is really worth the price. e. Realize that you aren't stupid; you did get something from your addiction. It just may not be working on your behalf anymore. 2. What do I hate about my addiction, what does it do to me (give specific examples)? List as many of the bad, undesirable results of your addiction as you can. Here it is extremely important that you use specific examples. Specific examples have much greater emotional impact and motivational force! a. Ask yourself honestly "If my addiction was a used car, would I pay this much for it?" b. Review this list often, especially if you are having a lot of positive, happy thoughts about all the great things your addiction did for you. 3. What do I think I will like about giving up my addiction? List what good things you think/fantasize will happen when you stop your addiction. a. This provides you with a list of goals to achieve and things to look forward to as a result of your new addiction free lifestyle. b. This list also helps you to reality test your expectations. If they are unrealistic, they can lead to a disappointment based relapse. 4. What do I think I won't like about giving up my addiction? List what you think you are going to hate, dread or merely dislike about living without your addiction. a. This list tells you what kinds of new coping skills, behaviors and lifestyle changes you need to develop in order to stay addiction free. b. It also serves as another relapse warning list. If all you think about is how much life sucks now that you are not doing your addiction, you are in a relapse thought pattern that is just as dangerous as only focusing on what you liked about your addiction. Notes This is not a do once and forget about it exercise. It is an ongoing project. Most people simply can't remember all of the positive and negative aspects of addiction and recovery at any one time. Furthermore, seeing all the negative consequences of addiction listed in one place is very powerful. On the positive side, no one really knows what they like or don't like about living free of their addiction until they have done so for some time. I know of people who continued to add items to all four questions for a full 6 months. See Also: CBA Worksheet

Searching Soul, That is awesome!!! Way to go!! To me..that kind of cleaning and tidying is TORTURE, BUT it is so thrilling once you're done because your space is decluttered and now your mind will be as well! This is such a great way to get the ball rolling in your adderall free life. Now your mind is clear to start working on some fun projects!

Oh Ashley! I'm so sorry to hear that. I will say a prayer for you! I've never had one so I don't know if it will be painful or not. Thinking of you though. (((hugs)))

Hey Brandoyoo, how are you doing? Are you still on this board at all?

Thank you In Recovery! I really need to hear that tonight. Thank you for making me smile.

Heather, I wasn't posting this for Kyle, lol. This is something I'm doing to help people with addictions.

Thanks Ashley! Of course! I would love that. However, my meeting won't start till May most likely, but I'm sure you'll be back again this summer maybe?

Add to list: I am training to become a SMART Recovery facilitator. I will be starting a meeting in my neighborhood.

Sorry dude. Your new pic is frightening me!

Damn y'all! It's blowin' up!