AlwaysAwesome

LOL, put it on the list. So true.

Why didn't you just quit? Because this is one of the most addictive substances on the planet. Don't let it control you. The only way to do that is to never take it again. Stop now.

I disagree. I had a terrible time quitting. The emotional pull is just as strong for me as I have read it to be with others who abused it. I think, even people without "addictive personalities" are slaves to this drug. It is the great equalizer, in misery.

Hang on to this feeling when you start to feel low and the Adderall pulls at you to come back. You can do this! Welcome to the site, and keep it up!

That is an excellent way to look at it, AA! It is an investment, and we are all worth it!

I was seeing things that weren't there. But, I think that was more psychosis than vision problems.

As long it is a "long term goal" to be as super human as possible, then hang on to that. I am 18 months clean and I still have schlub days. Nothing wrong with that. It is a long process.

Welcome back, GrumpyCat...we are all here for you.

I am here for you. I understand all of these issues. They were the reason I always went back. But, 18 months later, I am so much happier and healthier. I can't recommend anyone stay on Adderall for any amount of time. It is a bitch to get rid of. Send me a message if you need to chat.

Yeah. But, you are doing the taper, so follow docs advice and don't jump too soon. Glad you are doing well!

Don't be too hard on yourself. Low expectations...maybe take a shower, or not. See? Like that.

How is it going today?

First of all, you need to tell her. It is hard to quit Adderall without support and external accountability. I was working Night shift when I started taking Adderall, too. Alternating shifts like that is hard enough on your body without the added stress of Adderall addiction. Stop now, before you get too deep. But, tell her. Good luck and welcome to the site!

you are only 2 months clean...you aren't going to be "yourself" for a while. Take time to rest, exercise, eat healthy stuff and just recover. The rest will come.

I think the "not your friend" part got him. I really don't care what he thinks, because I am doing pretty damn well considering all the crap I have dealt with recently. He was just pissed because I told him no to discuss his dating/personal life with his employees. He was lashing out. He won't listen...I hope he gets his stupid ass fired. Not my biz.

I feel so much better without carbs, mostly sugar and wheat. Hang in there! You are doing great.

So, yesterday was 18 months clean! YAY! On a less happy note, my boss told me twice yesterday that he likes the Heather he hired better than the one here now. I told him that the Heather he hired was on Adderall and doesn't really exist. The Heather of today is tired. I also reminded him that he hired me to run the laboratory (which I do like a BOSS) and not to be his friend. Bastard... So, happy 18 months to me. Thank goodness DOD employees have to commit murder, probably more than once, to be fired because I got a little heated yesterday.

It gets better...and it isn't just you. We have all been there. Quitting Adderall is the hardest thing you will ever have to do with will power. Well...sugar is hard, too. Just hang in there and be strong.

YAY!! Stay close to this site and post when you get an urge to go back. The strong people on this site helped me many times when I was tempted to go back...

Hungry

Diet...

That seems more realistic. It was about 10 months after I quit that I noticed the weight started to level out and then come off.

I read my quit story again and I had forgotten that I had cut back to 1 1/2 pills a day. It wasn't to taper, it was to prolong my Adderall time so I would not have to go without. I hadn't called to get my prescription in time and was going to run out. So, I starting to conserve the pills. Then, I decided that I would just quit. So, I suppose in a way I did cut back before quitting. I was taking 45 mg instead of my 60 mg prescribed dose. If my memory serves me, it was for about 2 weeks. So, there it is.

I was on 60 mg daily, and I never took more than I was prescribed. I posted a comment to my story so that it will be available for you to read. It should be there now.

Posting here for smhjen to see.