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You are so smart to do it right away rather than wait. The destruction that it could wreak is so great. Good job! EDIT: Seriously this post made my throat clench when I read the title, although I knew in my heart before reading it that you made the right choice. This was a happy thread to read.

I totally can identify with so many parts of your story, especially at the beginning when I chuckled to myself thinking "wow I'll never let it get that bad". Well guess what I did, and it got worse than I ever imagined it could. It's totally a horrible feeling in the world when it finally dawns on you that something is wrong, and you really can't stop yourself. I've been in the scene you're describing for so so long. The only way out for me was to get myself cut off. It's the best way. Our instincts and pride tell us to keep our despair and tears and anguish a secret. But this works against you because it's pretty much impossible to stop through will power alone at this point. Once your brain heals to about the 6 month point, you start to level out and are able to resist more, but until then you need help in the mean time because the irresistable cravings (like when you basically have split personality and you talk yourself out of quitting) show up within a few weeks like clockwork. You WILL get your true self back, but it comes back gradually in stages. Your first and most important step is to cut yourself off in whatever way to can. Make sure it's not an option to go back later. Because the cravings ALWAYS come back no matter how much you hate the drug. I can't tell you how many times I've been sitting at my desk sobbing after binging through 20 pills in a day and a half, knowing that I am going to have to cope with the crash, and simply wondering how long it's going to be until I break down and start the whole fucking destructive cycle over again. You can stop and you have come to the right place for support!

wow you are getting close now

7 months is soooo awesome. you must feel so proud! and you should!

go guys go!!!

i'm finally getting back on the nutrition/exercise bandwagon, trying not to think about what *COULD HAVE BEEN* if I had stuck to it first few days are the worst but it's started getting easier. I tried LCHF a few times over the past few years and it just doesn't work for me - I can't stand it - I need my milk and sugars too much... I do agree it does work though

i haven't been to one but I imagine it to be more personal than this website since you meet real people and get more in person real time support. one obvious advantage to this site of course being that our addictions are more similar since we all used/abused the same drug

TDT great to see you blast through your first week. almost done the second week now!

had a SUPER fun couple of nights with some musicians and we did a couple shows at some bars. next one is in a month or so I can't wait!!! I would love to share a video clip with you guys but don't wanna out my real life identity publicly on this site. if anyone wants to see send me a PM! signed, excited

So happy you've made that decision to quit. Do not despair (not too much anyway, I know its a rough spot you're going through now) because things are going to get much better for you!!!! I totally know what you mean about crying and being able to do nothing except lay around on the couch. Just go with it and try to go easy on yourself and enjoy the twisted vacation as much as possible. Eat the foods you love and try to distract yourself while you get through the early part. Life is going to get so much better for you!

i remember one particular episode had me so brutally depressed I was googling for help and therapy. fortunately i found some help

50 carbs isnt too much, or are you doing a LCHF diet?

im so jealous of you having not seen them yet. prepare for one hell of a ride

you definitely should feel very proud of yourself!

ouch!

Congrats to both of you!!

i decided im going to carry around a bicycle bell with me and ring it as i walk through crowded places like subway stations. I've heard it works great and people just impulsively get out of the way

Day 7 confirmed! Week 1 is down and withdrawals are over I'm convinced. I slept like 15 hours a day for the first 4 days. Now I don't feel depressed anymore and I'm sleeping a reasonable 9-10 hours per night without grogginess the next day. I am drinking a lot of coffee though..... oh well. the cravings are going to start hitting over the next few weeks but I will be prepared for them. Whenever I even start to think about it I mentally return to my breakdown moment and remember the grief and pain that led me to flush that shit. Routine will be my ally as I have learned over the past year. So I'm getting up at 7am every day and in bed by 10pm, no exceptions. Back to cooking a bit, but I still need to get back to the gym. That's next up on the list as it will only accelerate recovery. Thanks for listening!

sometimes you just gotta let it out. congrats on 9 weeks!

IIRC spaghetti noodles have niacian and thiamin in them and they are both great for your brain.

first day back at work and oooo was i ever feeling it today. moreso in crowded subway stations and people who decide they want to stand on the escalator (there is a designated *STANDING* side) and block everyone from walking up it. thus prolonging the cruel agony to be endured shuffling in a massive crowd. But i think I also feel that way on a good day too, so I can see how some people just lose it.

The future holds awesome things you for! Keep up the good work you are doing great!

you're still at a point where it is extremely easy to quit, compared to if you let this go on for a couple of years (which that times flies by at the speed of light) don't let it get that bad!

motivated

I am not sure if I do or not. I remember being paranoid about it at one point. At the very least I think it makes those "eye floaters" get worse. Also I think I read somewhere it can amplify your problems if you have a family history of Glaucoma.