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I'm not trying to crap on you here, but I've spent the last week wondering the same thing Nouedis. Often your posts have seemed *JUST* relevant enough to convince me you aren't a spammer, but some of your posts are a bit odd considering the overall theme/goal of this site. In particular: http://forum.quittingadderall.com/topic/2699-adderall-and-eating-disorders/#entry23007 What is with your comments on that thread? Anyways, sorry for thread hijack. Back to advice on school....

It's a very real concern (how would I cope with *insert crisis here* without adderall?) manifested in a non-realistic way (oh no zombies!!!).

Apples are a great way to satisfy sugar cravings. Lots of volume and they taste very sweet if you haven't had actual sugar in a while. Seriously try to eat 3 apples (approximately 150 calories) and not be at least mostly satisfied. AA - where did your ticker go? You stopped it after one year? Greg - I firmly endorse Wendys as superior for unhealthy experience, dollar for dollar (at least in Canada).

Not sure if this is what you were hoping for in responses, but I relapsed so many times I can't count. And due to my binge use fashion "relapsing" was synonymous with "scoring" for me since I quit once or twice per month. I think the crucial factor is stated in the article For me, deciding that, "I slipped because I cannot control my cravings and continuously talk myself out of quitting, despite the fact that I always decide to quit right after a binge/crash, when I realize I am not in control." So for me the change was that I needed to no longer stay silent about it, despite the fact that I wanted so bad to keep this private and not have to admit it to anyone. Recognizing that it was not within my power to quit on my own so I needed to ask for help from someone else in the form of having my supply cut off. EDIT: Of course I only did this after my very last relapse. All other relapses were just business as usual (involved a lot of laying around feeling sad and guilty) until I finally swallowed my pride.

I think it says something about my relationship with this drug (and perhaps my style of usage) but the ones that haunt my the most often are

You should be so proud of yourself! Treat yourself to a dinner out!

awesome article

league is the game I played for hours on end (30 hours straight one time) while chain smoking, once i stopped popping pills I realize that my *PASSION* for that game was ridiculously delusional, nothing to do now but look back , smh, and lol at it i guess, no pun intended haha I do like to play a bit of PS3 these days though so i am sometimes online PSN

I'm really happy to hear about your success. You are doing some awesome!

Just bought some L-Tyrosine today and took 1g last night and I felt pretty happy in the evening. This felt amazing since I spent the previous few days feeling really "relapsey" and stressed right out. I took 1g twice today and shortly after the second dose I got the migraine/nausea thing and was completely knocked down all afternoon. Definitely not something to take lightly so be careful with this one. I think I'll just go back to 1g tomorrow morning and see how that goes.

I tend to read posts when I'm having a crappy day and post my own when I'm having a good day. So it'd be easy to get a skewed sense of what life is like at 5 months clean for me from my posts alone. From what I've heard, 6 years is when you stop thinking about it at all. That's a long time from now but might as well make the most of it in the mean time by taking satisfaction in the small accomplishments! Btw, congrats on being sober for over a year. You are doing awesome and are a huge inspiration!

yeah the preview looked really cool. its high on my list for sure.

Woo! Passed half way to 30 days! Won't be long and you'll be on the 60 day challenge!

Im a few episodes into Daredevil and it seems really good. I actually can't stand watching TV unless I'm eating nowadays so I only watch about 1/3 of an episode at a time while I eat sometimes. Funny hearing myself say that, about 4 months ago I was worried that I would never actually want do anything EXCEPT watch TV. I bet I cracked a solid 500 hours of TV in my first two months. Now I probably watch between 1 and 2 hours a week. So anyone who's stuck on the couch don't worry just go with it for now and try to enjoy it, haha!

and dont hate yourself

hang in there buddy, it gets so much better I swear!

I began detoxing at home on Saturday of a 4 day weekend, so I had more or less 3 days of lounging around watching netflix and eating comfort food. When work started up again on Monday, I literally chugged a massive pot of coffee and showed up at work each day to put in my minimal required face time and then high-tailed it home and went straight to the couch to have more snacks and vegetate in front of.... yes more netflix. Glad they have so many shows. Whenever I had progress update meetings I would just bullshit things that I hadn't actually done. I would spend 10 minutes skimming research papers and try to bluff that I had read them carefully in order to justify how I was spending my time. Fortunately the person I report to likes his booze in the evenings, so he called in sick for many of our meetings anyway so that made it easier for me to lay low. Nice to see you on the forum Katers, 6 months is really awesome keep it up!

I'll bet money the same thing happens again. Just give it time!

Congrats CreativeGuy! I'm so happy for you! It's going to get easier soon. I also agree with the ticker. Getting to watch your turtle, bike, or soccerball slowly move along the day counter.... idk... there's something about it. It gives you some short term gratification which you are probably sorely missing right now. Kinda like trophys or achievements. You said you were a gamer right?

yeah its really creeping me out to look at, sorry i had to!

haha i'm sorry this was supposed to be on the one word status update. my mistake, not attempt to hijack your thread with my dreams of lounging in a tropical beach! I swear!

hawaii - i want to go can someone take me there plz thx

CreativeGuy: I'm soooo happy to hear that you stopped taking them! I can't wait to hear about your transformation to a better life! Keep us posted!

CarpeDiem: i know what you mean about the grumpiness! Don't be too scared. You are still re-calibrating and you will be amazed at the recovery you are going to make. You will keep surprising yourself day after day. You have already done the hardest part, gotten through the first two weeks! It only gets better from here on out! Dont forget your own words:

Haha finally someone else likes Hemlock Grove!! Such a funny/creepy show. I didn't like the second season so much but the first one was just grand. You've given me a tonne of new material, catw66, thanks!